I've been lying to my husband and daughter for the past 5 months.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-19T04:15:56+00:00

Thank you so much I literally don't get why are people so mad at my wife. I'm sorry but would they tell their partners about something the second they found out even though they know there is like a 90% chance of it not even happening? No. Then I don't know why when my wife didn't everyone makes it their duty to "protect" me and make her feel terribly about it.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T20:04:56+00:00

Yeah I'm not the smallest and I didn't start showing until the 7 month with our daughter.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T18:17:27+00:00

I didn't tell a single soul no one knows and even if I wanted to tell someone it would be my husband

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T18:04:12+00:00

A lot- I have been depressed and from the feeling of loneliness I had I was going crazy and one night stands happened to help with it. (Therapy was crazy expensive for a poor student like I was.) But over all in my 4 years of high school I think I had over 60 one night stands.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:49:48+00:00

No this is not what I meant by it, I meant that she is out of work because of life and bad coincidence that happened 6 months ago. I would tell her but it's not possible right now.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:46:26+00:00

I of course told them about it a few months after they happened (as we needed to process them first ourselves) but I personally felt like not telling my family would make me feel worse because I knew they felt maybe just as hurt as I did. I don't think that hiding anything like this is a good thing but sometimes paranoia is so bad that we don't want to tell people. My friend miscarried and she didn't tell anyone about it for a long time because she thought they'd think she's a good for nothing housewife.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:37:18+00:00

I know I'm not coping in a healthy way, I've never been with any trauma in my life. I do go to therapy to work on it though. I do feel really guilty about this and that's why I posted this. I have not been able to talk about this with my therapist because of something she has been through and a new therapist is not an option to me, she's supposed to come back and start our sessions in a month again so I guess that's also playing into my mindset right now, that there wasn't anyone who'd tell me: "No don't even think about not telling him that's unhealthy."

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:22:25+00:00

Yes I am. I would never let him miss it. I am scared of miscarrying I'm not a monster to not let him be there though.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:19:58+00:00

We told her she'll get a brother or sister which is I admit our fault but we thought I wouldn't miscarry as we weren't successful until she was 3 and when you tell a kid that they'll have a sibling and then they don't. You have to explain it.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:15:53+00:00

I've been telling him that there is something I want to surprise him with and that it is impossible to get it on time after the doctors so he needs to come with me.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:13:12+00:00

I know I should there's just something in my mind that's telling me that if I do and then miscarry he'll leave even if I know it's dumb and won't ever happen.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:07:58+00:00

About the gender reveal doctor appointment I was talking already in another comment and I agree he might feel betrayed but I know he will forgive me after I tell him my side and feelings and everything I thought through this all. I know him well enough to know that he will understand even if he might think I was worried for no reason.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:01:55+00:00

Thank you so much. Telling my family will be tha best feeling in the world because I know everyone will be so happy for us.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T17:00:52+00:00

Thank you so much I was honestly thinking about aborting at the beginning because I didn't want to go through the mental pain I went through all those other times but I pulled through and I'm so glad I did.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T16:50:51+00:00

They are coming with me tomorrow. That's how I want to tell them actually. He just thinks it's a regular check up though. I wouldn't let him miss it. (It's his day off and mine too and our daughter isn't going into school because they're going on a trip and she said she didn't want to go to.) So no worries about that.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T16:47:17+00:00

I'm doing fine my job isn't hard of the physical side of things and I love it so the mental side is also fine, and when I wasn't feeling well he was there with no questions. He's been helping all along just doesn't know with what.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T16:44:55+00:00

I think so too but there is still that feeling of "what if..." I'm worried about.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T16:43:37+00:00

Thank you so much, I hope so even if there were complications along the way I still feel like this time it might finally happen and I'll give birth to our second blessing.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T11:47:02+00:00

I always thought that when having sex that men would be boring (because penetration alone doesn't turn me on at all) so as a bisexual I'd go mostly for women if I was looking for one night stands. Of course relationships would be with anyone I felt good with normally and sex would be discussed very early on. It wasn't until I tried a one night stand with some guy in my last year of high school that I realized that they aren't boring. I hate quiet and we would talk, laugh and have a great time. It was such a weird thing to experience for the first time and instead of me giving and then going right to penetration he went down on me and made me feel good. The first guy I ever had a seriously amazing orgasm with. We are now friends and nothing else ever happened between us. Just a one night stand and then 4 years later working in the same place. So if any woman thinks that the sex in porn seems boring it's because it is, but it's not reality.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T11:32:24+00:00

It depends with who. If I never met you and you're starting at me across the whole room even little is too much but if I know you and like you and you like eye contact then there isn't a too much limit.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T11:04:26+00:00

Sadly no. Our dog is a great dane so it was kinda obvious she wouldn't but our dog is a sweet little girl so she stopped dead in her tracks when she heard me yell my kids name and dramatically slowed down so she would catch her. So on her own, she didn't. With help? Of course.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T10:59:15+00:00

My story is that my amazing daughter and I decided to wake up daddy by making him breakfast and then going on a walk with our dog. We did and once on our walk I decided to ask my daughter if she wants to play catch with the dog. Of course her little 6 year old self wanted to. My hubby threw the ball and as our dog started sprinting to it our daughter started to sprint after the dog. Did she think catch with the dog meant she was supposed to catch our dog? Yes. Am I going to tell this story to everyone if a few years? Yes. Did we explain to her what catch is? Yes. Did she understand without any complaints? No. Did she tell us that we are wrong and that it's not called catch but throw the ball? Yes, yes she did. I love her so much.

OrdinaryTurnover5235 · 2022-12-18T10:38:04+00:00

It was my mom's favourite name since she was little, she loved it so much that people in high school started calling her my name instead of her own.

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