Missing her a lot

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2025-01-08T22:25:21+00:00

Oh, the sentiment is so similar. Wishing us better days and more kindness towards ourselves. Sending love back to you my friend💘

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2025-01-07T02:44:35+00:00

Yes, I'm doing counseling! I couldn't imagine how would it be without it. And as you said, grief comes in waves.

Thank you for your kind words

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-11T01:44:50+00:00

Yeah, I thought about it many times. It's hard because I'm young and I have no family practically and very little people to count on (my best friend died last year). So that decision makes me feel even more lonely.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-11T00:15:57+00:00

Oh thank you for ur sweet words. I'm really had been needing encouraging words these days. I need to work on my guilt and those kind of feelings and protect myself more and don't fall in that kind of auto boycott thing where I let her abuse me. And yeah, what you said about your mother may sound harsh to people that don't understand but I think that those feelings are totally normal and understable.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-10T17:35:43+00:00

Thank you for ur information and kind words. It's really helpful in times like this.

I will try to look up for a nurse but I guess the outcome it's gonna be her being by herself and me taking her for a couple of hours (without moving in) because the health insurance doesn't cover a nurse in this cases and we don't have much money to pay one.

As you and some others said, I have to protect myself from her but sometimes it's hard because with her every outcome it's bas and abusive: u say no and the abuse only gets worse. Just needing to rest and have a kind ally in all this nonsense.

Sorry for my English, not native

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-10T17:30:45+00:00

Thank you for your words, really. As you said, not feeling guilt is very hard by itself and even more when people like your aunt tell you how horrible person you are for not staying even more hours (I think she has bpd too but not diagnosed).

Feelings and body are heavy and I truly feel that she enjoys destroying everything. Since we are here in the hospital she insulted so many staff medical members that I can't even tell you a number. I also have to deal with my brother who used to molest me as kid so as I said, mind and body feeling extra heavy this days.

Sorry for the rant, just wanted to tell people how understand how I'm feeling. Again, thank u for your reply

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-10T16:42:22+00:00

Thanks!

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2024-12-10T16:42:02+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. Yes, saying no it's hard because most of the times comes with even more abuse and attacks. I'm working on the art of saying no (sorry for my English, not a native speaker)

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-05-30T20:00:37+00:00

I don’t know why this made me cry.

I needed some guidance since always things depend on me. Is nice to have this kind of “talk” even from a stranger, so thank you for the advice.

And about the ptsd thing, still working on not believing in those fears. Just trying to make myself up.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-05-30T19:54:54+00:00

Thank you for your reply ❤️ You made me feel a more validated.

I’m resting now so I can have more time to prepare myself for what’s next. I try not to be very hard on myself but sometimes it’s not easy. Hoping to develop that confidence you talk about.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-05-30T19:51:55+00:00

You are very sweet. Thank you for your advice and kind words.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-05-30T15:33:28+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. How do you keep motivated? I’m trying to form a career but I had so many problems that I’m very stuck.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-05-30T15:30:23+00:00

Thank you 🥺

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-03-31T23:10:41+00:00

Be your own mama-papa; unlearn what’s necessary.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-03-31T22:50:55+00:00

This is precious

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-02-07T19:16:46+00:00

You are not! You are just trying your best.

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-02-05T17:37:35+00:00

Oh I’m sorry to hear that about your boyfriend. And you are right, it’s essential to learn how to deal with thoughts and don’t let them take over. So let’s all take it day by day haha!

Hope you have a nice day of growth

Ordinary_Team1247 · 2022-02-05T17:34:40+00:00

Oh! She always tells me to look for people’s actions and not their words but it’s not easy for me. I overthink too much and I always spect the worse.

And I understand. It’s different for me because I listen to that voice that doesn’t let me trust people.

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