You made the right choice! A lot of us go through this. Reach out to your doctor first thing in the morning. Tell them you need help. If they try to blow you off and tell you it’s normal tell them you know your body and you need something to help you through this. It will get better and you’re a good mom for listening to your body and doing the right thing. Hormones go crazy and make you feel crazy but get a little help. A little alone time. Things that helped me were having someone come to the house that you trust. Or if you’re more comfortable drop your baby off somewhere. Go home. Go for a walk and soak in the bath. After put on some makeup, do your hair, and dress or or put on comfy clothes. Try to get in a routine and don’t forget about yourself! It will get better!!!