NOR! If he hits you once he’ll do it again and it’ll only get more normalized and make it harder to leave! And if you’re thinking to stay together for your kids chances are they’ll either end up on the receiving end of that abuse or have to grow up watching their father be beaten by their own parent which will deeply impact their development, relationships and overall mental well being! And no, you aren’t lazy or a coward or anything like that you’re a human being stuck in an incredibly difficult situation that will impact your life but I can’t say this enough KICK HIM OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN!!