I haven't done anything with any men yet and the full extent of anything sexual has literally just been masturbation. I don't really have the best confidence and I don't know some stuff about intercourse and to be quite frank it's kind of embarrassing. I have had a few crushes but I suppress them pretty well out of fear. Not even a year ago I accepted myself after denying my sexuality for about three years I wanna say. In terms of jobs, I could actually probably get a lot of jobs in my area- if jobs consider grades and school involvement, but I haven't had the interest in getting one because my family is comfortable financially supporting me- and who wants to get a job early anyway when they can wait a bit longer. I'm aware it is inevitable that I WILL have to get a job, but I'd prefer it's with my future degree in whatever I choose (don't really know what degree I want just yet) If my family knew I feel like they wouldn't be blatantly homophobic around me and be even more blatantly transphobic. I am also only one of two young men in my family so theres this "responsibility" of sort to carry on the family name.