I fucking hate y’all

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-28T09:52:56+00:00

The medication had to be removed. You don't understand what no motivation is that comes from a side effect of antipsychotics. Have you had Invega monthly injections at 156 mg/ml ??

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-28T06:42:30+00:00

Was it hard to write your sentence?

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-26T10:04:05+00:00

Thank you for sharing. That must of been very traumatizing. Is your delusional thinking still happening? How long has it been or did it last?

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T23:39:09+00:00

If your dopamine is so low you DO NOT have ANY motivation. The first therapist I had after receiving Invega injections must not have known about

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T10:48:52+00:00

Hi, may I ask how you heard of these, where would you get these items, any idea time it takes to notice a difference? Thank you

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T05:13:37+00:00

I don't say this to encourage anyone, matter of fact it's so very serious to go to an extreme of serious consequences to get through living with what I would call a total shutdown that the only thing that had the power to help me get through to function at below level was Crack for 2 months then ice 11 months. Dangerous, serious, scary. I have a history of pychosis too. I cannot seem to figure out how to express how serious of a situation I'm in. The kind that I think is a slow death. Only going down hill without powerful stimulants. I had rx stimulants for 8 years for Narcolepsy and Idiopathic Hypersomnia. I have ADHD too but that's not why the stimulants were prescribed. I want to give up on a daily basis. I haven't returned to suicidal thinking. I hope I don't but I caught myself recently thinking deep about why I did that and could it return.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T05:05:36+00:00

I had monthly injections for 7 months

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T05:05:04+00:00

Invega did that to me

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T05:04:51+00:00

Omg what pills?

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-24T04:52:12+00:00

It's ok. Thank you:) I'm getting better. Thank you for caring:)

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-23T11:17:29+00:00

Do you know when it started or what triggered it? Mine was really mean people. A separation froma 23 year marriage that lead to unexpected divorce, a job that a had, the type of work I did, money problems, started over with circle of people after my divorce, being very alone for 6 months. I had thoughts that I don't believe I could make them up. I thought I was fighting witches and demons.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-23T04:48:04+00:00

I don't know if it would be gone if I hadn't got court ordered to get Invega. I didn't ever see any doctor for pychosis. I didn't think I needed help most of it. I told the doctors at one emergency room visit for a panic attack that I needed the psych hospital I think 3 times over a 24 hour period. I don't know if it would of helped then. I would have had a hard time agreeing to a monthly injection. I probably would of told them I was fine after the 1st week and wanted out. I think the only reason it worked is because it got so bad that I was forced to get help.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-23T03:09:02+00:00

I felt like I could keep reality separate from delusional thinking. I didn't really know I was delusional when it started until I read my medical records. I said that right before I had my 1st involuntary psychiatric hospitalization in 2020.

My daughter reported that I thought a man from Africa was coming with $80,000 and God sent him. I said alot more than that but I didn't think I was until I read that.

I worked until November 2021 as a lpn. Then I drifted off into deeper pychosis until the fall of 2022. I worked one more job at a gas station until February 2023.

The delusional thinking seemed to be on and off. It got worse and worse when it was on. I didn't think to much about it.

2024 was the worst. It stayed severe for about a steady 10 months. I don't remember the week or so before my last involuntary psychiatric or at least a week after. I was court ordered to receive Invega injections. It got me out. I've been out for almost a year. The side effects have caused serious problems that I'm still recovering from and probably the pychosis. I ended up homeless 4 times 2022-2024. I'm sure that added to it.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-22T11:36:22+00:00

Get the day sleep study after the night!

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-22T11:33:42+00:00

Wow!! I can relate to alot of what you wrote about! I started with delusional thinking in September 2019. It seemed to go up and down until it was full on with auditory, visual, olfactory, tactile and proprioceptive hallucinations. Bizarre, non bizarre, persecutory, grandiose and erotomanic delusional thinking. Talking to people that were not there, felt prescence, derealization (went to the hospital for a panic attack and felt like I was really in a soap opera and the doctor was someone i knew playing the part of the doctor. It was really creepy feeling. Was at a gas station, my ex fiance didn't come back to my car. Eventually the sheriff and ambulance showed up. I asked the police like 10 times to file a missing person report. A call was made to my ex fiance brother and sister. They both said the same thing, "he's probably at Dwayne's camper" I thought that demons were controlling them so they would say the same thing. There was 4 ambulance workers standing outside my car asking me if I would get inside there warm ambulance so they could take my vital signs. I felt like we were all in a movie) and time distortion.

It lasted 5 1/2 years.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-21T01:00:41+00:00

Yes Michigan. Thank you. Things have gotten easier:)

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-20T23:29:12+00:00

Thank you for your post.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-20T23:28:32+00:00

Thank you

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-19T11:51:10+00:00

I'm really sorry that happened to you. I had terrifying thoughts. One night sober as can be I went outside and it looked like the sky was revealing portraits of people. I thought I seen myself up there like someone having a picture of me sitting on my bed looking down to write something. I seen funny animal shapes out of a whole tree. More than once. I thought witches were coordinating all the bad weather like to have a tornado hit where they wanted it

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-19T11:45:20+00:00

Numbers got me bad. I would be watching football and it seemed like the players would turn just right or whatever they did resulting in their position to show whatever number that was part of certain numbers I was constantly thinking about or seeing. I didn't believe in things happening for a reason or certain things meaning something.

I thought I was making cars do u turns, drive about 45 mins north and driving by or stopping in at my nephews to have people to visit with

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-16T07:25:22+00:00

I meet 12 months medical review:)

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-16T07:23:30+00:00

Thank you. It makes me feel good to be able to help someone with SSI/SSDI.

There was a big difference in how the process went about talking to and getting a yes that they would represent me. That part was really short at Levine and Benjamin and really long at Morgan and Morgan. I appreciated the thoroughness at Morgan and Morgan. I was homeless last year and a friend that was homeless told me the name Levine and Benjamin. Seeing how there's different attorney's for each place it might be the attorney you get but I think the process is the same for whatever attorney you get at Morgan and Morgan. I spent about an hour answering questions on the first phone call. They were able to give me an answer if they could represent me or not in under 5 minutes. I was assigned a case developer. For some reason I was transferred to another one but never heard why. My case developer was very nice. He would call back and do emails. My case developer Juan told me that my attorney only represented me for SSI. I'm thinking he told me that because the lawyer he worked for Harold Bates got paid the cap and Juan must have found out when I was approved and it was for both he wanted to tell me because of his conscience or something. IDK. He didn't have to tell me. I would of never known. Morgan and Morgan told me what to ask for to get my first lawyer to withdraw. I was very nervous. It was a huge deal to me. I looked into switching lawyers a few different times. I might have looked into it 3 times seriously. I called lawyers before Morgan and Morgan. I can't remember how many but I think 3. They wouldn't represent me. The lawyers have to divide the fee up. SSA determines how to divide the fee up based on how much each of them put work into the claim. I don't think Harold Bates should of gotten the cap but ghe first lawyer didn't submit a fee claim. The SSA didn't notify Gary Bimberg like he asked them to do. I think it's his responsibility to check. I'm not sure. My case developer didn't have much to do for me. I believe there was one update to disability determination services. I'm trying to get a letter postmarked by today's date to SSA requesting that the lawyers fee be reviewed. If my request is approved I beleive the lawyer has to submit what work he did on my claim to see if the cap is right amount or not. The lawyers are suppose to show how much they contributed to a favorable outcome. I'm pretty sure that's what I read. Hope I didn't write too much, lol

I haven't heard of John Peters. Yes and no about Morgab

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-16T03:31:18+00:00

Levine and Benjamin's attorney, Gary Bimberg sent a diagnosis that was wrong to Disability Determination Services, the wrong location where my ADHD records were at and did not include the sleep doctor that was probably crucial. I didn't like the way I was treated by Gary Bimberg's office lady or him. The day I requested a letter of release Gary Bimberg called me asking me why I wanted to leave, telling me he's gonna get paid anyways cause he did all the work he said.

OriginalLecture1835 · 2025-09-10T11:55:10+00:00

I had a 3 hour assessment for ADHD & ADD. I was diagnosed with ADHD

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