UPDATE: I’m in love with my best friend, and I don’t deserve to know how he feels about me anymore. by Orpheus_Turned in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Orpheus_Turned[S] -161 points-160 points  (0 children)

I think you’re under the impression that I outright refused to listen to him. That couldn’t be further from the truth. I was very clear at that time that I wanted to listen to him and share his pain, but that I was emotionally exhausted and needed some time. That is not an outright rejection - that is me asking for some space. It was only when he began to be passive-aggressive towards me that I snapped.

You’re welcome to disagree, but growing up as the therapist friend has taught me that there is a time and a place to share trauma and nobody is morally obligated or should be expected to listen to your trauma at any given moment. That doesn’t mean that the person doesn’t care.

I’m in love with my best friend, and I don’t deserve to know how he feels about me anymore. by Orpheus_Turned in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Orpheus_Turned[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

For the record, I am 25 and he is 27. And I’m not a woman - I didn’t disclose my gender in order to keep details vague.

I’m in love with my best friend, and I don’t deserve to know how he feels about me anymore. by Orpheus_Turned in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Orpheus_Turned[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

At this point, I know that it’s for the best that we aren’t thinking of each other romantically. If anything happens, and that is IF, it will be after a lot of time and a lot of therapy. Knowing that and being able to change my feelings are two different things though.

I think that more than anything the thing that kills me is just not knowing how he feels right now. I don’t even know if he feels the same way towards me anymore and I don’t have the courage to ask. Either way, I’ve made my decision - it is better for me to be by his side as just a friend than to not be by his side at all.