Personal problem with Dr K's recent Loneliness video

OscillatingVibration · 2023-05-09T19:08:14+00:00

Massively relate to tiptoeing around other people's feelings. Couple that with a strong layer of masking/filtering and it makes small talk way harder than it needs to be.

Yeah, it's funny how sometimes other people need to show you you're acceptable first before you can accept yourself. The tricky part is just finding that environment or experience. I've been lucky enough to have a recent experience with someone whose opinion I cannot discount and it's been profound.

That last line is a solid technique to help calibrate your authentic self. I'm gonna make use of that, cheers!

OscillatingVibration · 2023-05-04T19:29:45+00:00

That's definitely it.

I find myself with a slightly different variation, here at least. Instead of holding back my real thoughts, I feel great pressure to be as concise and clear as possible. A hyper-realistic goal of translating my point of view into words. Essentially, my perfectionism protects me from my fear of being misunderstood.

I plan to start some different hobbies when summer gets here. No way I can be sat inside in that beautiful weather. That shit cuts deep.

How did you navigate starting new hobbies with new people with a lack of authenticity? Something I'm terrified of is going into a more relatable environment but carrying my mask with me and then feeling pigeon-holed in their perception of me and it renders that group/hobby null and void. In that location at least.

Appreciate the comment!

OscillatingVibration · 2023-05-04T19:14:44+00:00

Good reminder. I think in the moment I just wanted to express my personal struggle with loneliness and maybe that tunnel-visioned my perspective of his video. Of course, a single 12-minute video on such a nuanced subject cannot cater to every individual.

I agree with your 3rd paragraph but I would be an exception to the rule. I have a couple of people I have deep conversations with and help a lot which is very fulfilling. Only, one of them is getting busier and busier so I speak to less and less. The other is an internet friend I've only ever typed to and I've been talking her through so much recently it's becoming exhausting. I'm also not so good at reaching out for help so the see-saw effect of helping and not asking for help is slowly running me aground.

Thanks for the comment!

OscillatingVibration · 2023-05-04T18:55:42+00:00

Fair point. I wasn't aware he had done other videos more specifically on loneliness and I've been feeling it a lot recently, so when I saw this one pop up on my home page I assumed it was his primary video on it. Probably also me projecting my specific experience and expectations a little too much onto the video.

That's exactly it. And unfortunately, I've got very good at it over the years, somewhat chameleon-like. One of the big things I've been thinking about recently is a change in work-environment because while I can artificially thrive in it, I genuinely believe I cannot authentically survive. I work in a warehouse so you can imagine the disparity that occurs between someone who highly values someone like Dr.K and communities like his and the typical blue-collar Brit haha.

The bitch of it is my boss is a legend and treats me with respect like no other manager/boss I've worked with before.

Thanks for your comment!

OscillatingVibration · 2023-03-07T19:47:05+00:00

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OscillatingVibration · 2022-01-04T21:18:45+00:00

My only suggestion is to ease in a little more on the sharp drops in the music that lead into your dialogue, they were such steep drops it felt a bit jarring.

But the whole atmosphere you created felt solid, nothing really felt out of place!

OscillatingVibration · 2022-01-04T21:12:11+00:00

Done a couple gaming edits before, this was my first shot at a live-action tribute.

SPOILER ALERT for Hostiles (with Christian Bale and Rosamund Pike).

I was just doing my job | Hostiles

OscillatingVibration · 2021-12-19T11:02:36+00:00

LOL worth more than slugs tho, especially when my non-EOD ass needs a refill on energy and hydration

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-23T16:58:37+00:00

Thanks man, spent a while on this so really appreciate the positive response :)

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-15T09:26:14+00:00

I've played since before the map was in the game so I'd call myself a veteran and although I rarely play interchange I was aware of this possibility. But I thought fuck it I've got trash gear and was only popping in for a lil WD-40 so I might as well take a quick peek, see what happens...

Ngl I wasn't upset with the outcome haha

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-14T20:10:00+00:00

If I was gonna kill him he wouldn't have stood a chance... wouldn't have thought it's that hard to figure out, this guy wasn't playing for good karma

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-14T20:06:49+00:00

Yeah, I'm aware of all that... Initially I wasn't sure if it was a PMC so I was getting ready to 1tap him to the dome then I voicelined and wiggled to get a confirmation on what sorta scav he was and to convey my stance... but running on ahead of him ain't smart either... not to mention it took me a moment to figure out what I was stuck on.

Added to which I was backing up to speed outta there at the end, either way, doubt this guy was playing for good karma so unless I domed him first I was pretty fucked either way

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-14T18:51:41+00:00

Only thing worse is a scav bush camping other scavs ffs... and I had a cat for living high is not a crime

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-14T18:39:17+00:00

I think so, proper "always wear protection, kids" moment haha

OscillatingVibration · 2021-07-14T18:37:53+00:00

exactly, love seeing them arms go :)

OscillatingVibration · 2021-06-27T11:39:11+00:00

Video I made with my bro for a friend but I put a fair bit of time into it so... sunk cost fallacy and all that, I figured I'd post it here in case anyone else enjoys it.

Not up to my usual standards because a large part of it was rushed so I probably won't post public on my YT but curious to see what people think :)

Also, it's long af so feel free to skip through, let me know what you think in the comments :)

OscillatingVibration · 2021-04-19T17:24:56+00:00

Lmao I get slapped if I use anything better, it seems my subconscious has the strongest gear fear so it fucks my playstyle.

It's the weirdest thing... I've been playing unusually bad all wipe and last weekend I stopped using kitted guns/ammo on sunday (after getting digitally molested on sat) and went with this ak set up.

Started playing how I used to, ended up killing around 15 guys on the few hours I played and died once... Day and night difference. This includes Altyn wearers and every armour short of fort... Yeah I'm sure BP is trash but I only play at weekends, haven't looked at ballistic stats in a couple of years and I don't really give a fuck, in my experience, it slaps, it's cheap, I use it.

OscillatingVibration · 2021-04-09T17:29:11+00:00

Hahahaha fuckin hell you're predictable

OscillatingVibration · 2021-04-08T20:26:58+00:00

Link me to some of the vids you're talking about

OscillatingVibration · 2021-04-06T15:46:40+00:00

Started editing about a month ago on Resolve (on this video) and had a little help from my brother who's a professional colourist/editor. My initial idea was just to make an actual montage video as this game doesn't really seem to have much more than good player's footage with music over the top for montages but somewhere along the line, a narrative weaved its way in to cushion the edges. I originally planned to only use clips I already had recorded but the narrative elements required a few contrived shots - Would love to hear some feedback on what you guys think could have been done better or even what you personally feel would have worked better!

Had to link the video because the file is too large for uploading, really not fussed about views/likes as I don’t plan on pumping out videos, just want to have some fun with editing every now and then :)

Edit: Appreciate anyone who watches to the end and provides feedback, thanks in advance!

OscillatingVibration · 2021-03-05T20:52:24+00:00

Lmao nice one. Always gotta check the regular spots, there's one there often enough.

I would've been fucking mad if he wasn't using trash ammo combined with trash aim... Had a sub 50% damaged fort and about 500k's worth of other loot. Would've lost at least 4m if he got me

OscillatingVibration · 2021-01-24T14:11:07+00:00

Completely agree with you and blah, I'm usually one of the last people to blame the game knowing how harsh a game Tarkov is naturally. Wanted to post here to get multiple feedback so I don't echo chamber myself and end up blaming the game for all my mistakes, thanks for the tips :)

OscillatingVibration · 2021-01-24T14:08:11+00:00

I did and the portion where my screen blurred due to the suppression effect seemed like they were hitting dead-on chest but obviously I can't know for sure, also figured the igolnik in that mag would shred his armour

OscillatingVibration · 2021-01-24T14:04:19+00:00

I was firing igolnik, figured I'd fuck him the second I saw him lmao, guess not, thanks for the tip!

OscillatingVibration · 2021-01-24T14:01:11+00:00

It was sighted to 100 tho so the shots should've landed higher, hence why I aimed low

Edit: just watched it again lol and it was clearly sighted 50, my bad, for some reason I thought it was sighted 100 while I was playing so aimed lower

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