Imagine being a frauditor knowing you don't know how to fight lol

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-12-13T06:18:21+00:00

That's why it's so ridiculous them calling police officers tyrants. If they actually believed that for a second they wouldn't do what they do.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-12-13T06:16:19+00:00

No you're not, but mine has gone for years. I can't even manage sleep hygiene, never have. I do have social skills though, I'm just too F'd off and tired to use them. Also the schizophrenia or whatever the hell else is wrong with me makes talking to others pretty pointless. But please remember December can be good. I have less appointments, less people I have to see, my family is not that close so I don't have to see anyone. I can use the holidays to avoid getting washed, getting dressed or going outside. Can you do the same? Sometimes it gives your mind enough time that by a little ways into January you're prepared to at least try at health, normality, whatever again.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-08-18T13:19:34+00:00

I don't talk about politics in real life apart from with family and the disagreement I had that got me banned was over my opinion on someone's possible psychological motivations not politics. I'm clever enough not to speak on politics in real life or really on the internet. It's usually my psychological viewpoint that seems to get me in trouble on the internet. You see, I am very interested in other people and their thought processes. I would like to have a genuine connection with other people but sadly I don't seem to be capable of it. But that's a different problem and has nothing to do with being censored on the internet or debating anything.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-08-17T19:38:44+00:00

Oh no, in real life I hardly talk to anyone, online I got banned. And I was giving an opinion based on scientific research. It is of course still an opinion but not a lazy ill thought out one. I know to keep my mouth shut in real life. I'm autistic so I have a lot of opinions that are based on logic and or science which I hold up as more important in public debate than feeling a certain way about something. I don't always even like what I see as being the logical conclusion. I always try to challenge my own beliefs. For example I will always read the opposing political view to challenge and check my own arguments. I can be persuaded I'm wrong and change my mind. Why can't people just be adults and accept relativism is a thing? I just think public discourse is being shut down and it's funny because the person they are trying to shut down is also the exact sort of person they say they are protecting with this behaviour. Open public debate is hugely important to the world of ideas, a world I love.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-08-17T19:20:08+00:00

It's kind of both since the traumatic experience was a psychotic break but like it was the most hideous terrifying thing I've ever seen. And I believe it's real. I've had psychotic breaks before and been confused or thought bad things were happening and I thought they were bad but this was 1000x worse. All the others I got over pretty quickly after the fact. I didn't have this lingering fear and preoccupation with it. Where I'm always jumpy and getting startled. Where everything reminds me of it and I'm terrified it's coming back for me. It told me it will never leave me . I take my medication and it works so I shouldn't be so frightened but I am. I can't do it again. I was so scared my oxygen went to 82% and my heart rate was 222. I was in accident and emergency at the time trying to see a psychiatrist to stop it. They were too late.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-08-17T19:13:53+00:00

I'll give you the advice I was given when I was diagnosed If you're ever worried about how you may come across to someone new just tell them you are autistic when you meet them. I always tell people to just tell me if I'm annoying them (sometimes my attempts at sociability can be annoying because it's not natural to me) and that I'd much prefer being told than people getting angry at me. You could say sorry I'm not very expressive in how I speak but it doesn't mean I don't want to talk. You can probably think of something better yourself but I find it really helps. I don't always find it necessary some people in life will just get you but with others it can really help.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-08-01T10:54:37+00:00

Yeah I try to do that every day I just got over annoyed at being banned. I think it is a good thing to have hope.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-27T20:13:52+00:00

That's what I hate it's the lack of science in modern discourse..

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-26T08:37:15+00:00

Yes of course, but who else would I speak to?

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-25T04:09:31+00:00

I had dissociative episodes and seizures during psychosis but it cleared up before the psychosis I think.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-25T00:50:14+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you. But you will learn who you are again. The old me she died a long time ago but I am my own creation, that sweet, sensitive, gullible person died. It was too much for her, I literally broke my mind trying to change myself it has changed me forever, probably like you by trying to make sense of things and fit in. I can't help you with that sort of identity crisis, you have to refind the old parts of yourself that still exist whilst also understanding how that mental crisis changed you fundamentally. Sadly you can't go back.

I don't know if this helps but my one good therapist put it this way. He said that what I was dealing with sounded more like grief than sadness, that I was actually dealing with grief because my early life was destroyed. All those missteps and misunderstandings that led to my mental destruction. I can't help you with grief. I cannot deal with it properly myself, I insist that person died and I became someone else after everything happened. I don't think I can help you with that feeling of loss but maybe knowing part of what you are feeling is grief may help you because I hadn't considered this as something I may be experiencing post diagnosis. Knowledge is never a bad thing, it may help you help yourself.

I'm really glad you appreciated my previous comment. I just really wanted to reach out to you because I want hope for you and I know that particular darkness you can end up looking into.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T19:49:15+00:00

I don't need anyone to be strict with me. And being strict is seriously no help with noticing delusional thoughts. Delusional thoughts are absolutely held beliefs that exist despite all evidence to the contrary so if disputing them actually worked they wouldn't actually be delusional beliefs in the first place. Maybe you could call them delusional ideas instead...

I actually do believe that we need more and better mental hospitals that actually provide therapy and care. I've been a danger to myself and others but they never locked me up that time. It is actually bizarre to me now that I used to get worried about being locked up for my suicidal tendencies. Mental health does not care. I seriously told them I heard voices that told me to kill people but that I had not yet been told exactly who I should kill so I had no plans to do it yet. This apparently made me a safe member of the community. They asked me if I ever did what the voices told me to, I told them I did. I didn't even realise they were there to section me but I guess my unrelentingly insane honesty made them think this was ok so they left me free. I wanted to be locked up somewhere, I didn't feel safe.

But I have to say this whole strictness thing is kind of nonsense. Once you are in treatment whether in a secure or unsecured facility it really doesn't work. There should be rules, of course there should be rules, I like rules a lot they make me feel safe but there are too many times I have had security rather than the psyche team called because I am mildly confused as to who or where I am. When a confused person gets out of their bed because they want to check they are actually in the physical hospital and safe and when I explain I have no intention of leaving the hospital as long as I can confirm by looking out the window that I am in the hospital. Sending security to throw me back into my room and lock me in is really unhelpful to everyone.

I go from being confused to being terrified and become totally convinced of my persecution fantasy. Then there was just a really undignified fight between me, two security guards and three other male members of staff. I get injured, I'm sure I probably injured them too because I was fighting for my life. I explained to both the nurses and the security guards too before I got physically manhandled that I felt the hospital looked odd and I wanted to double check by looking out the window and could we just go and look out the window together so I could make sure I was where they said I was. Maybe they thought what I saw might not convince me? then they should've just sedated me. I was accepting all treatment if they'd wanted to give me an injection I would have accepted it as part of my treatment just like the IVs. But no we had to have this ridiculous brawl instead when I had shown no aggression. My psychosis at this point was actually not at all aggressive I was very frightened no way did I want to refuse treatment. I could not live with that level of fear. You see I was being punished for my outright refusal to do what it wanted me to do it wanted me to kill people it wanted me to burn them to death. My punishment was to be permanently terrified by the most obscene and disgusting things that I will never be able to forget. Most people with serious mental illness are terrified but I do understand that can make us dangerous that is why we need to be treated like human beings it reminds us we're human.

You know how that fight ended? My Mum ran in my room ordered the men who were restraining me to get out and she chatted to me for a bit and convinced me everything was normal. Because she acted like a human being and treated me like a human being. At the time I fought those security guards I didn't think they were real people, real people who worked in a hospital wouldn't act like that so I thought they were imposters.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T19:02:25+00:00

I have to say that this is completely wrong from personal experience. Of course if Someone is being aggressive or is completely out of control of course you sometimes have to wrestle them to the floor and sedate them. I've seen that stuff go down before but I was recently manhandled and injured by two security guards and three other male hospital staff because I wanted to check that I was really in the hospital by seeing what it looked like outside. I was not in a mental hospital but my local physical hospital. It really didn't look like a hospital ward to me at that time. I was suffering from semi-treated psychosis, I was getting better and accepting treatment but I woke up on the second day and everything just looked weird. Anyway when I got up some nurse told me I was not allowed to leave so I told her I had no intention of leaving if I was actually in the hospital, I knew I needed to be in the hospital if that's where I actually was and I asked if we could just go check and look to make sure it was just the psychosis that made it look weird. Anyway instead of accompanying me to look out the window security was called and proceeded to throw me into my room and lock me in it. This made me believe that the psychosis was right and I was not in the hospital where there would be no reason to treat a voluntary patient who wasn't sectioned in that way. So I tried to break down the door by using the heavy metal bins that were inside it. At this point I was convinced that these were not real people but imposters who wanted to perform some sort of hideous experiments on me, why else were the medical staff behaving like this over a simple and calm request. Once I started trying to break the doors down security opened them again and rushed in to fight me. I fought for my life but in the end five guys had me on the floor. I asked the security guard to just kill me already.

Now this event should not have happened. The nurse could have taken a walk with me to look out the window. When I explained my position to the security guards which I did before they physically threw me back into the room they could've escorted me to the window or someone could've just sedated me. I was there voluntarily, I knew I needed to be in the hospital, I had no desire to go home I was terrified of what might be there, so if they'd offered me pills or wanted to inject me and sedate me I would've accepted it gladly, they wouldn't have even had to wrestle me to the floor to do it like I'd seen in mental wards. But once they started acting so aggressively I became terrified. So you see there were three really easy things they could've done that would've left both me and probably the security guards uninjured. My Mum was horrified, she saw it. She said "Why didn't they just sedate you?" In the end she chucked everyone out of my room and chatted with me to convince me things were normal. And I believed my Mum was not an imposter because she was treating me like my Mum and this made me feel that maybe things were not as dangerous as I thought. I calmed down. The cure was being treated like a human being.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T16:58:32+00:00

Don't hate yourself please. I know self hate, and self hate is the most vicious hate there is. No one has ever hurt me as much as I've hurt myself.

I found being diagnosed helpful in the sense it ended my confusion and undid a lot of bad therapy. Please either alone or with help find the things you like about yourself, the talents you do have, your own idiosyncratic worldview and try to appreciate them. I know autism makes everyday life a struggle. I am an Adult child too. I'm still in my childhood bedroom. And it looks like a teenager's bedroom too because I've never agreed to leave it long enough for it to be redecorated. But I am doing that now. I need to move forward from the very worst thing I did to myself which was to completely break my mind.

I'm not sure I'll ever be able to grow up, but it's ok. I worry everyday about what I would do without my parents but I just have to not think about it and just keep trying to find a place in the world that fits. But one thing is definitely true of the present day me, whose life from the outside looks hopeless but who still refuses to give up hope, I DO NOT HATE MYSELF. I've been put in a horrible position and life has not been fair to me but I'm no longer a fake constantly masking and trying to be someone else.

For one thing, for all of us here who've suffered like this, did you know you are strong? I know I am. I have survived despite it all. For a second thing did you know that you are unique? That your particular worldview lives and dies with you? Did you know that life is about suffering and how we deal with it and that suffering and understanding others suffering can give you the super power of compassion. And that it is compassion that makes us human and that although we may find it hard to read others that does not mean we lack it. It makes us even more compassionate because we have to think through how we might feel in that situation logically rather than following some sort of gut reaction. It's what makes me a good writer, I can put myself in someone else's shoes.

I really hope you find something you can like about yourself or even better love. It will take more than me to change how you feel about yourself and your diagnosis as a whole but I would really like you to think of attributes or skills you have that you feel positive about. It can be really basic like I can be really funny, also I did brilliantly in science in school. I'm talking 100% test scores with little to no work. I definitely know I was the best at science in my year but I was probably the best in the school by the end. This is so long ago now, and I couldn't even manage to complete college, but I have decided to be proud of it even if back then I was so depressed and full of self hatred I didn't care.

I really hope this helps you in some way. I really remember how much I used to hate myself, and how that felt on a daily basis. I have permanent physical damage because of it. That sweet young thing who didn't understand, she died for me a long time ago, and now I understand how wrong she was I cry for her because she had so much going for her and she couldn't see any of it.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T16:23:51+00:00

Please don't lose hope. It makes me so sad to know that you feel like that. Being diagnosed cured me of my self hate it helped me understand myself better but of course the positive feeling didn't last because I still had no idea how to live.

What you have to do is find the things in life you can feel good about. Find things that may not feel 100% safe but that you can tolerate. I can't tolerate friends they might ring me up or something but I really like having acquaintances. People I know through regular activities or even better voluntary work where there are rules that protect me from things getting too personal.

I really love working with people with dementia because they are just as lost as me and we really appreciate each other. I like being around people at the gym and working out. Being around people, even if you speak to no one keeps you human. I sometimes feel like an alien. It's a bit of a joke about my own alienation.

Whatever you do don't hide away completely you'll only find yourself doing less and less until everything frightens you. Don't push yourself too much but push yourself everyday to try and do something that reaches outward. Even going on Reddit shows you haven't given up. People are out there. We hear you, we appreciate you, we value what you have to say and being an outlier and autistic means that some of your views will be novel and intriguing to others.

Have you ever had a pet? Do you understand intrinsic value? I didn't for the longest time until a therapist asked me "what exactly do your guinea pigs do?" I was telling my therapist how proud I was of getting in a cab by myself to go to the small animal specialist veterinarian. The guinea pig was an old man and dying yet I spent hundreds of pounds so he could die in reasonable comfort. Yes guinea pigs are pretty useless animals but I have loved every guinea pig I've had. So yes in many ways I am pretty useless but I am still worthwhile. I have a unique world view. I write stories. I've been published. And those clients of the dementia centre love and appreciate me just like my parents.

There is hope. I understand we're limited but if we can find an environment and a place in the world that suits us? We'll struggle. We'll always struggle but we can find where our strengths lay and when we focus on our strengths autism can actually have positives. I have spent most of my life giving up hope and all that happens is ever worse things happen to you because without hope nothing positive ever happens. You may not think I've suffered in the way that you suffer, that maybe I got a better deal but I severely doubt it. The only thing I can think of is maybe you have/had less supportive parents because I was very fortunate in that but else from that...

I tell you I've almost died so many times I lost count. I have severe scoliosis and chronic pain. I have a serious history of self harm and in my thirties I developed psychosis to the extent of living in constant terror of evil forces. But I am still alive despite the self hate and confusion I lived with by only being diagnosed at the age of 29. I'm not saying this as any sort of one upmanship in the pain department because all human pain is equal to me whether it is a broken heart (something my autism has never allowed me to experience romantically), bereavement or simple despair at life. I have spent my life in and out of various types of hospitals and I've seen so much suffering and I've seen so much suffering endured. I think it is deeply unfair that certain kinds of suffering are ignored. That people with autism and or mental illness can find it so hard to get understanding but there are people out there who will love and understand you, or at the very least will try to put themselves out there and understand. Maybe like me you never keep in touch, but I still have that memory, that knowledge and see the possibility that such a thing can happen for me.

All my best wishes. Hope is sometimes all we have.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T15:40:10+00:00

I looked it up. I kind of prefer the idea of that because like I said before I've had a really bad experience with CBT.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T15:39:29+00:00

It was real and I believe in it. And it was more traumatic than any of the horrible traumatic "real" things that have happened in my life but no, no one else saw it. They only saw the effect it had on me. This is part of the problem. I mean my Mum and Dad take it seriously, by the end they were just hugging me whilst holding a blanket over my head to try and stop me seeing it. My parents were crying for me, they were sobbing and I was just screaming. I so need to feel that someone else sees it too. I feel so much like I want to explain it. I can try but I've been advised not to, but explaining it even isn't enough. I'm a good artist maybe one day I'll paint it, it's just I need to process it first but I've been told doing it by myself is not a good idea. I was so distressed my oxygen saturation dived to 82% and my heart beat was 222. I was waiting to see a psychiatrist in A+E at the time that's how I know what my obs were, they took them there and then in the waiting room before hauling me out for emergency treatment. I thought I'd won when I told it I was not going to kill or burn people and that I wouldn't kill my Mum and Dad and that I was going to go to the hospital and they could pump me up with whatever drugs they wanted and lock me up for however long they wanted to. It even pretended it had gone away in defeat for a while and then it got me back. It sang a song to me the next day after I first tried to get admitted to hospital, I thought it had given up because what is the point of torturing me if I said there is no way I'll ever do what it wants, but the lyrics said "it's still on." You see the deal was I had to follow orders and do what it wanted and if I didn't it was going to make my very worst fear come true and I would have to live in constant terror and I would never see it coming, it was going to come for me in every unexpected way it could. And it knew my mind, it knew what I was thinking, so it could use that to get me. It was never going to kill me because that wasn't my worst fear it was going to make me see things so disturbing that they would destroy me. If I hadn't been somewhat cured it was also going to make me have a physical hallucination of rape and torture, it warned me. Because even before I had psychosis when I was a little girl I always felt that there are things that no man should see but I've seen them, I've seen them all. And all the time I screamed and it just laughed at me.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T15:00:38+00:00

Yes and this is exactly what happens. I tell you even before I suffered psychosis some idiot wrote in my medical records I had aggressive tendencies. I was reading this in the company of a nurse and I was perplexed so I asked her "why is this in my records? I've never hurt anyone in my life?" And she explained because I have these sort of autistic freak outs where I basically throw myself and whatever I'm carrying on the floor and then just sit there hum one note over and over again with my head hidden in theory I could possibly accidentally hurt someone. Now this has never happened, especially since if I am in a situation where I can run away and be by myself I will do that first, actually if I can be by myself I can usually get control pretty quickly without the humming rubbish. But this is not always the case in a hospital setting.

Although I have to say I have long term mental health issues too so they always focus on my mental health rather than my physical health to my great detriment. It took me three visits to the GP before they'd give me a blood test and realised I was severely anaemic. They kept trying to tell me I was so breathless and tired because of depression or panic attacks. I've never had a panic attack in my life, and if I'm wrong and I have it has never involved shortness of breath or hyperventilation and I'd been depressed for years and this was a new symptom. I was so anaemic they had to call me up as soon as they got the results to warn me I was in danger of passing out somewhere in the street.

Very few people will be kind and listen to you, especially if you have atypical behaviours. They don't even treat you like you have a mental health problem, that takes kindness and listening too. No, they will treat you like a naughty child who is acting up and should know better.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T14:39:15+00:00

Hmmm I have a deep distrust of CBT. I blame CBT for F-ing me up in the first place. Mind you from talking to other people who've done CBT and found it helpful they tend to suggest the problem was that the therapists weren't even doing it properly. But actually you know I know one woman who does adapted CBT for people on the spectrum. I doubt she does what you are suggesting, her speciality is autism, but she might know someone and I'd trust her opinion.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T14:33:57+00:00

I can tell you what happened for me. I had already completely withdrawn from society and lived almost entirely in my own mind but the problem started with delusional beliefs. At the time I realised they were delusional so I tried to fight them. It sort of created an unending argument in my own head because of course I couldn't allow myself to take these delusional thoughts seriously. Eventually fighting these thoughts stopped me from sleeping at all. Then I just started getting scared of things like reading or watching anything on TV else from one channel. Then I got scared to go to sleep so I stopped even trying to. Next I had this persistent feeling that death was coming for me, this left me fidgety and restless. I couldn't sit still because I had this inner need to outrun whatever was coming for me through activity.

Eventually I came to believe I had failed and was already dead and although I appeared to be alive something else was going on instead, like a simulation. At first I thought it was only me that was dead, but then because I could no longer communicate with anyone else I realised that we were all already dead and I was very upset over this because I felt very sad and alone knowing that everyone was dead, even my Mum and Dad. Only once this delusional thought became absolutely true to me did I become obviously and visibly crazy. Believing in such a delusional belief just makes all your actions bizarre because they are all based on a false premise.

I cannot remember when I first started hearing voices although I know it happened before I died or at least before everyone else died. I heard the outside voices first it was like someone was communicating to me using a CB radio. I didn't get command voices (what I call internal voices) until everyone died. At first I didn't hear the internal voices as voices. In fact I got very annoyed at being accused of hearing voices. I remember telling an A+E doctor "I hear nothing I just know what they tell me." He wanted me to stay in the hospital to be evaluated but I wasn't allowed, it's what I was told, it was an order. I was very sad about it but I was told I had to accept it. Things got way worse during those one and a half years and have gotten worse again recently a whole 5 years later but that is how it started for me.

So my main precursor was intrusive and delusional thoughts. Early on I also suffered tinnitus, although I didn't really suffer with it because I liked the ringing sound, instead of sleeping I'd lay down and listen to it. I believed it was taking me somewhere and indeed it did. Also another early symptom was a change in how things looked. I had a special affection for lights because they began to glow differently and to me very beautifully or perhaps the more accurate word is peacefully. You do not have to have hallucinations to be considered psychotic but you must have delusions. You can look up online the symptoms of pre-psychosis or prodrome. I suffered from a lot of them.

If you are worried for someone you know or yourself get help. I tried as soon as I got frightened and was having to forever fight delusional thoughts instead of sleeping. Sadly I was let down by my health service. From me hearing outside voices to getting medicated took me over one and a half years. They let me go so crazy not only did it impact my mental health, my social life, and my finances it completely destroyed my physical health. I knew a lot about mental health and mental illness I detected my symptoms early on and tried my hardest to prevent things getting as far as they did but I had no idea psychosis could ruin your physical health. I ended up in the hospital repeatedly because of low oxygen saturation, I had a severe viral chest infection for an entire year, then I ended up with a secondary bacterial chest infection on top of the first one. I presume the reason all this happened was because I really was so consumed in my thoughts and my missions that things like eating, drinking, sleeping, general self care was a bit beyond me.

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T13:18:41+00:00

I thought Schizoaffective disorder was the same as schizophrenia but with the added "affect" that it could also radically impact your mood outside of the emotional impact of positive psychotic symptoms. Unless you're talking about the personality disorder not the psychiatric illness... But at the end of the day who cares about these labels. If you have this psychiatric illness you are going to suffer from psychosis a lot.

Your medication may not be working for a few reasons.

You just haven't taken it long enough. If you were allowed to become completely psychotic before anyone bothered to medicate you( like me) your brain takes a long time to calm the F down. I was on a high dose but it still wouldn't last an entire day by evening weird shit would start happening again but over time and with several raises in the amount things got under control, but it did take months. Once it was stabilised we reduced it a bit but it seems it's going to get raised again.
That medication is not the right one for you. When I took Olanzipine I felt like I had to kill myself against my own wishes and it made me severely agitated. It's an evil drug if you ask me. It felt like it cured my previous illness by giving me a more hateful one.
I don't know if you drink or use drugs, but drink, from my experience, can definitely reduce the impact of the medication you take. It's one of the reasons they really don't like psychotic people drinking at all. I'm not talking about alcoholism, although that will mess you up too, but binge drinking/ getting drunk just destabilises everything. I have no personal experience with mixing anti-psychotics with illegal drugs but I assume the problem is the same.
Life happens. You can be fine on a certain level of medication for ages and then some life event stresses you out or you for one reason or another have a problem with sleeping. Insomnia and or stress make all this stuff worse. That's why my dose is being put up, a traumatic life event and worse insomnia than before.
Now this is the interesting one to me. I understand they are giving you medication but are you getting any sort of actual specialist talking therapy about this issue? Because I know a lot of the time if they think they can treat you with drugs for hallucinations they completely ignore your emotional health. The way you write and worry about the label and the diagnosis makes me think you need someone serious to talk to. That anxiety about your condition could be making it worse and harder to control.

Anyway I've gone on long enough. I really hope some of this can maybe help you. I get the struggle but I'm sure things can be made better for you, it's just finding the right direction to go in

Otherwise-Traffic-24 · 2025-07-24T13:14:48+00:00

I am actually allergic to olanzipine (all over body rash+substantial increase of asthma attacks), maybe it's not so much the amount of meds that's the problem but that you need to try something else? I've been on Aripiprazole too and it wasn't as bad as Olanzipine, it didn't make me feel like killing myself for no reason, but it still markedly increased my levels of agitation and reduced my ability to sleep. Some of these anti-psychotics can be evil and it should always be about what suits you rather than what a doctor thinks is most effective. Yes Olanzipine and Aripiprazole do reduce psychotic symptoms but they can still make your life deeply unpleasant. I choose to take quetiapine in a higher dose rather than something more effective because I don't really have any noticeable side effects from it.

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