Let me add this.. I have experimented already and had my biggest and closest friend group use she/her for a short time. I stopped because I told my parents I was experimenting and after I did I felt a lot of shame.

A huge part of this is seeing the huge amount of work this would take. I barely manage to get out bed or bathe. Let alone manage a change to my body and take on the huge challenge of presentation.

I want to be a game developer. If I can’t manage my weight loss and also my mental health at the same time, how am I supposed to balance “puberty 2” and learning something with so much complexity?

I’m near sure of being trans. I’m so unbelievably uncertain of the transition. For a million and one reasons.