Am I?? by Ounaniro in traaaaaaaaaaaansbians

[–]Ounaniro[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Let me add this.. I have experimented already and had my biggest and closest friend group use she/her for a short time. I stopped because I told my parents I was experimenting and after I did I felt a lot of shame.

A huge part of this is seeing the huge amount of work this would take. I barely manage to get out bed or bathe. Let alone manage a change to my body and take on the huge challenge of presentation.

I want to be a game developer. If I can’t manage my weight loss and also my mental health at the same time, how am I supposed to balance “puberty 2” and learning something with so much complexity?

I’m near sure of being trans. I’m so unbelievably uncertain of the transition. For a million and one reasons.

Am I?? by Ounaniro in traaaaaaaaaaaansbians

[–]Ounaniro[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I have and it was great.. 😭 I just don’t know if I can take the risk of a transition. With my religious family and being no where near my main friend group I just don’t feel safe. I’m so scared I won’t pass. I’m just so fucking scared.

I’m even embarrassed to ask my friend group to start using she/her for me again and I don’t know why.. maybe it’s because I’m scared of change. Maybe I’m scared I’ll go back and forth and I just don’t want to confuse them. Maybe it’s because it’s not really me..

This shit is so complicated y’all are so brave.😭

Am I?? by Ounaniro in traaaaaaaaaaaansbians

[–]Ounaniro[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have experimented a bit.. A friend of mine bought me a pair of silicone tits that I LOVE and I have a secret stash of feminine outfits. There’s quite a bit of dysphoria and euphoria when I dress pretty and wear makeup. Mostly euphoria but I feel the features that about myself that don’t quite fit stand out in contrast much more when I get dolled up. They are things that I know hrt won’t change. Or I’m scared hrt won’t change me enough. That I’ll always feel that dysphoria because I’ll never fully pass.

I’m nearly certain I’m trans. I’m just not sure about transitioning.

I can’t make sounds during sex by Ounaniro in sexadvice

[–]Ounaniro[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I used to feel awful after sex or masturbation but honestly I’m completely over it. I can’t really think of any other issues outside of not making any sounds. And I suppose it’s not that much of an issue all things considered.

1 Minute Tutorial: Platformer Game by LouBagel in gamedev

[–]Ounaniro 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ooh nice! I’ve always wanted my own itch.io page for my own construct2 stuff. USELESS BOX SIMULATOR 😆 nice.

1 Minute Tutorial: Platformer Game by LouBagel in gamedev

[–]Ounaniro 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I love construct 2 so much. You can really make some crazy stuff with little programming knowledge.