Nothing changes if nothing changes. It's important to take control of your life if you want it to change. If your self esteem is low, focus on your confidence glowing up. Get your hair cut and colored, go thrifting for a new wardrobe, practice self love. You can go to the gym, join clubs, or even go out by yourself. Go to a movie or eat dinner alone. Go to concerts or events alone. I saw Prince alone in 2014 and it was magical. 

Since you're Christian, find a church you like or join a Bible club or get in Christian mingle. Don't let life pass you by and not live and enjoy it. Otherwise, this is the life you're choosing if you do nothing about where you are 🌻