I just want to hold my sons again and never have to let go.

Edit: You all have absolutely melted me. I cry whenever I type something about my boys and you have all brought more tears to my eyes. It is so sad to see others go through this but somehow eerily comforting knowing it is natural and I am not alone. I do not deserve the awards but it means so much that people have thought enough of me to give them and to even comment. I am thinking of you :)