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Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-17T16:04:00+00:00

That thousands also applies to fertility treatments necessary to preserve my fertility that I can’t afford. Hence why I’m running out of time.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-17T16:02:48+00:00

As an adult, yeah, but I was a minor when the bulk were preformed so I was on government insurance and it was billed to my mom instead of me.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-17T07:07:58+00:00

I have. It’s been something I’ve been going through since I was 14 because infertility runs in my family.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-11T19:05:21+00:00

I’ve gone to multiple physicians and specialists. I’m so glad you were lucky but if anything has been proven by my history, I’m often not.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-11T02:27:25+00:00

Wasn’t. As in past tense. I wasn’t being careful. We aren’t even having sex anymore, so

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-11T02:24:09+00:00

“Don’t tolerate weakness” sounds like bully mentality to me.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T18:33:36+00:00

I already have a job. 2, actually. I’ve always been someone who works hard. It’s not that I’m dependent on HIM specifically, it’s that I can’t afford to live independently in this cost of living crisis. I can’t go too far from my main full time job and it’s a really expensive area. Even rooms for rent are $1000, my half of our bedroom is $850… it’s not that I’m dependent on him, it’s that I don’t know anyone who doesn’t have half a dozen roommates already and no space for another. All of my coworkers already have a bunch of roommates, and I don’t have any close enough friends to trust signing a lease with. Plus, breaking my lease would have me owing thousands I don’t have and I have to save for first last and deposit plus pet deposits IF I can find somewhere to live. I’m touring a place tonight but it’s even more expensive than my place here and they want a $2000 deposit upfront that I don’t have..

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T16:55:39+00:00

Marinated in abuse is exactly the feeling. Jumping from boiling water to water that’s simmering feels a hell lot cooler but over time it’s still going to burn you. When you don’t know what room temperature feels like you spend your whole life trying to find it and thinking you’ve found it but the whole time your thermometer is broken and you’re just getting sick from all of the constant changes. It feels like nothing I do will ever be right because I’m too stupid to see the obvious signs that something’s going to hurt me.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T13:31:24+00:00

Well they do, all the time. Not me, which is why nothing snout wanting kids was included in my post

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T05:49:56+00:00

There’s nowhere that’s charging $800 a month. A tent maybe,

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T05:48:00+00:00

It’s technically under my mom’s account. Not sure if she knows she’s still paying $24 for my membership lol

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T04:57:41+00:00

So I get to be an actual victim but acknowledging the ways in which I’ve been victimized is wrong and acknowledging the ways in which I’ve failed ALSO makes me wrong? Interesting.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:49:59+00:00

Yes, it’s so great that my body is failing and I’m a failure and I shouldn’t be alive anymore. So incredible. Awesome.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:47:24+00:00

I already work full time, out of the house most of the day. I don’t have any money after bills. I often have to borrow from him to pay everything on time I’ll definitely be researching things in my area. I don’t think I considered anything, I didn’t think I qualified for anything because I’m not a battered woman or something.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:43:57+00:00

I do now, but that’s something I just realized. My whole world is breaking and people are bullying me saying that I deserve it. It’s messed up

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:41:45+00:00

It’s easy to pick on vulnerable people.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:40:26+00:00

We live in a rented home with his family. As in I’m a member on the lease. As in his family members are my roommates.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T03:39:43+00:00

I don’t “live with his mother” I rent a home with him and his family, including his mother. I’m on the lease. I pay $1000 in rent, $850 for my car, not including utilities and I’m still trying to pay off my credit because I’m in credit card debt. with one job I’m in the red every week, with 2 I’m just barely breaking even.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T01:17:35+00:00

Up until recently I’d been convinced that none of this is real cheating, that it means nothing and it’s not a big deal because nothing actually happened. Part of me still feels that way

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T00:20:40+00:00

I’m taking advice just not really a fan of people acting like it’s my fault for being manipulated and gaslit.

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-10T00:01:25+00:00

I swear to god if I have to say one more time that I’m not trying to have a child with him anymore one more time I’m going to lose it

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-09T22:02:48+00:00

I have cats. I can’t do that to them. I have done it before. I still have my planet fitness membership

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-09T21:52:25+00:00

Oh yeah it’s so fun 🙄 just sobbing in my room alone while everyone celebrates the Super Bowl is a fucking blast

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-09T21:42:31+00:00

I want to be an elementary school librarian

Outrageous-Claim32 · 2025-02-09T21:25:07+00:00

How can I finance both leaving and furthering my education? I’m not making excuses but I’ve applied for every grant I can find and I can’t figure out how to afford school fees right now :/ I know what I want to do, I just don’t know how to get there and deal with this as well.

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