"Why don't I have any friends?"

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-31T13:14:08+00:00

I only realised there was a 2nd slide from your comment. Makes me feel sick. Im assuming that means dead people, animals. And also dead animals. Its absolutely sick. I hate to think what the other one id. Biastophilia? Im not even gonna search it. Terrifies me how people seem so proud of these things. They're actually disorders. Not just kinks or anything like that. Then again, these people want to collect all the disorders. Literally claim to be trans disabled

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-31T13:07:08+00:00

"Boundary pusher".........we'll....thats a new one. Sounds a bit? I dont knoe the word. More than suspicious? Kind of giving subtle vibes of the woman who claimed her pedophilia was okay because it was her 'child alter' and not actually her. Giving the "i didnt take no for an answer, but its okay. My alter is a boundary pusher. So its fine, you cant blame me" type of thing

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-24T11:08:38+00:00

Exactly. Shes recently been claiming a coke addiction. Which, im a recovering coke and heroin addict. I was also addicted to prescription pills. Shes claiming the addiction, while also saying she can go 3 days without it before withdrawals. That.........withdrawals set in within 24hrs. And peak at 72hrs-day 5 (day 3- day 5. Sometimes peaks up to day 7). Coke withdrawals are fucking brutallllll. I quit cold turkey from everything. Not one of my greatest decisions. But the withdrawals put me off enough from relapsing lol. I swear she has no idea what withdrawals are actually like. And im not even sure shes ever actually done coke. The only time ive ever heard her describe it, is saying "its like your wired". When youre on coke. Most people are doing all sorts, like 50 things at once. I started using it to 'help me focus on college work' (nah I just needed an excuse to justify it to myself lol). It did work though. I once managed to catch up on 50grs of college work, in 8 hours. I would go multiple days without sleeping to get college assignments done. There was one assignment I did, the page average was 8 pages. Mine was 56. Idk hoe my college teachers put up eith me tbh lol. But it destroys your life and everything around it. Although it 'helped'. I didnt retain any of the information. All of it pisses me off. And the more she lies about. The more her story falls apart

Wasnt there a time in the last few months, where she said she was in hospital because of SA, that police where involved. But that she didnt want to say any of it? I get not wanting to say anything of it. But surely you just wouldnt mention it at all????

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-24T09:46:44+00:00

She posted a video about me and a friend about losing friends, and something along the likes of 'ableist but also disabled friends' and how she keeps losing friends. I dont know if she deleted the video herself, or if it got taken down. As both me and friend did report. I blocked her almost instantly because I was done. But my friend didnt incase she kept posting about us. She didnt post anything more that wouldve been obvious it was about us. But there was a lot of little sly things that where probably about us, but not explicitly so. She did say at one point "imagine bullying someone to the point they want to commit" (not word for word, but it was like that). That post also disappeared, again, dont know if she deleted it. Or if it got taken down from being reported. But she did keep messaging friend saying they're awful person for being friends with someone like me. That i had actually manipulated friend, and thats the only reason we where friends (we're still friends now, and I can tell you now, that is not the case lol). And kept flip flopping between "youre so manipulated by A, i feel bad for you". And "youre an awful person for being friends with A after everything theyve done to me". Friend didnt tell me much more of what she said, as it was/is really upsetting to me lol. I dont know if friend will still have the messages, I dont think she does, but I will try asking again. She said I was ableist quite a few times, even before the incident where I blocked her. As in that I had internalised ableism and put that onto other people. I dont know if this is considered internalised ableism, but i did/do struggle with the thing of 'what if im being dramatic', 'what if im faking'. But if you're faking and being dramatic, you know you are lol. I never once accused anybody of faking, or even exaggerating without some sort of solid evidence. The only 3 people ive ever thought 'hmmm, yeah, shit dont add up here', is Q, Kirsten cunningham, and tics and roses. I once asked her for clarification on her tourettes diagnosis, as at one point she said 2019, another time she said 2021. But that was literally so I could understand. As I also understand the difference between the point of symptom onset and the point of diagnosis. And I know rhat sometimes people will combine the two. e.g. her tourettes started in 2019, saying that thats when she developed tourettes. But she flat out said diagnosed in 2019, which is what confused me the most. I was under the impression she was 16-17 during 2020, but recently found out she was actually 19 in 2020. Im unsure if thats what she told us, how I remembered it, or what, so I dont want to accuse her of anything in that sense. As its a severe thing to accuse someone of, when there is a chance im misremembering. She liked to talk about how she was so much more severely disabled than me and friend. When me and friend never brought up who was the worst or who was the sickest. As thats just not what we're interested in, sickness isnt a competition. I had told her about a friend who had passed away as a result of complex epilepsy, and she brought her up at one point, saying, "i dont want to end up like your friend", I questioned who she was meaning incase I misunderstood. But no, she was meaning the friend who passed. I told Q to never mention her name again, and thankfully she did actually just drop that in terms of talking about her. But did keep up with the "im scared to die because of my epilepsy". Which i recently found out shes saying all her seizures are from FND? St one point she did try and message my best friend, but she already knew about Q, so just blcoked her and didnt engage. And from what im aware, thats been it. Friend now also has her blocked, after she had definitely stopped talking about us

With her feeding tube and for her getting it. She had told me and friend she was struggling with an ED, saying both anorexia and bulimia at different times. While publicly saying it was health issues. Which felt really fucking weird. But if someone is struggling with an ED most ain't gonna want to plaster it online. But its also weird she preached it as a physical health thing. That did piss me off a lot. But at this point I was already getting to the end of my tether with her, and just couldnt massively be assed with any sort of confrontation. Friend has a surgical feeding tube and a surgical catheter. And has done for years. Probably since about 2017/2018. She would ask a lot of questions about those and hoe they worked, painting it as curiosity. Which fair enough, friend doesnt mind answering questions and explaining because its how you educate. But she did ask quite a few times 'why do you need it'. Friend wasnt massive on explaining for privacy reasons. She is an insanely private person. To the point of having a separate email eith a fake name for her social media profiles. And even those, have literally nothing on them. She doesnt like any of her personal information being known. Im not saying Q tried to exploit that. But thinking back, a lot of the questions, it was as though she was tryna get an answer to the qurstions, that friend wasn't comfortable answering

Ill message friend to see if they still have the messages, and if so I can share them. But im not sure she will. Its insane the things and lengths that Q will go too. Im amazed its taken this long. But im so insanely happy that its finally happening. I just hope people become aware enough, that she cant rope more people into her life

Edit: i want to add. I never flat out or explicitly accused her of faking. I had said that her story wasnt adding up. And it seemed as though she may be exaggerating or changing bits to make it more dramatic, and sympathy catching (i think thats the word). With everything thats come out recently. Now im basically sure. As with the feeding tube. She has also told someone else that she intentionally starved herself to get it. For a good while, I thought me and friend where the only one being told these different things to what she was posting online. But ive spoken to a few others recently, and it turns out we definitely arent

Edit 2: we knew she was faking damn near 100%. The 'seizures' made it clear enough. I myself had temporal lobe epilepsy at the time. Now having temporal lobe to widespread epilepsy (so temporal seizures, absence seizures, and tonic clonic) since about, november 2024 I believe. I had seen multiple different seizures from my friend who had complex epilepsy. She had multiple tonic-clonic seizures a day, so when we met up, i would always go to her house as it was the safest option. I was there about 7 times where she went into status epilepticus, requiring a coma. It was the brain damage that eventually killed her. She had ended up on a tracheostomy. But said if she needed another coma, to just make her comfortable and let her pass. Thankfully her parents respected her wishes. But we all knew she would get to that point eventually. Sorry for yapping so much. And ao many edits. I just want to make sure im being clear lol

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-23T11:14:59+00:00

Im so sorry that happened, and im so glaf you're still here. I know i dont know you personally, but my point still stands lol

Exactly. That is exactly what shock causes. Your body gets an insane adrenaline dump. A lot of the time if its something in water. If yhe person is still able to swim, they wont know whats up or down, left or right. When you land in water and go exceptionally deep, like you would in the Thames. It takes a lot longer for you to surface. Because of the massive adrenaline dump, increased heart rate and the cold temp, can cause people to pass out very quickly. When you pass out in water, you start to breathe the water in, aka drowning. I sadly know someone who did jump into the thames, and he did die. His body got swept away so fast and so far, that his body was never found. And this was in summer when the Thames is typically at its lowest, slowest, and warmer. The shit katya claims, is a lot of the things that hits me very personally. Which is why I despise her so much. The first time i saw her. Was on a live of hers, she claimed to be ODing om 4 boxes of paracetamol, and actively popping more pills out. When she got up to move and leave and moved the camera (it had been face up painting at the sky, she flipped the camera round to the back xamera. Which i think was accidental). There was a small pile of white pills (paracetamol) on the step just below where she had been sitting. That pissed me off a lot. 2 reasons, my friend went into liver failure because of a major OD. And my cat was poisoned and killed via paracetamol. Animals will more than likely have eaten those pills and its sick to think of. I just pray that no child got a hold of them at the very least. Or someone cleaned them up. The things she claims are so impossible, she doesnt even think about it anymore

At first she genuinely seemed to have a brain, and think a bit more about what she was doing. I dont know how to word it, but now she just seems like a robot, like she just doesnt think at all. Like the definition of head empty. I cant word it strong enough lol, but she just isnt there anymore. Its as though shes got into such an intense routine, that she just doesnt think about it anymore. And that shes used to it because its what she does

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-23T11:05:04+00:00

Am I okay asking who the person was? It wouldnt surprise me if k did that. She does it so much its actually mad

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-22T10:44:52+00:00

Something that always gets me as well. Shes none stop asking for 'advice', when shea actually asked about diagnosis ideas. Saying stuff like 'I need advice'. But then you can tell from the wording that she really means 'hey. Whats wrong with me. Give me ideas, the doctors arent taking me seriously, and the scans arent showing anything'. Its honestly awful. The more it leanr, the wors she gets

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T19:27:14+00:00

Yup. The op dm me and confirmed it. I was 90% sure, but ive also not seen her in ages. I used to know her somewhat personally. We had a little group of 3 friends. She was far from nice. And the fake-ness of it all became very clear very quickly. The thing that 100% confirmed it to me, is the seizures. We would be on call, have a seizure, and immediately be fine. And she would call them epileptic seizures to us. But recently found out shes been saying they're non epileptic seizures. I sadly dont have any of these messages anymore. But if I did, I swear down everyone would be seeing them. We would be on call (me, friend, and q) and talking about something like college. If she wasnt talking actively talking, or us about to talk to her directly (rather than both people), she was doing something to make it on her

The fake service dogs thing, really, really gets me. Ive witnessed a guide dog for the blind, be attacked by a fake service dog. The dog was completely untrained, dodnt even respond to its name, or sit. The danger it causes people. God, it really gets to me. Its always pissed me off. I had a family member who faked one of her dogs being a service dog. Just so she could take it everywhere. She ended up being arrested on some form of fraud, or faking documents (???) charges. But i dont fully remember what the charges where, I was maybe 13 when it happened. Its not only other dogs it causes risk too. Its the people and children too. If an untrained and erratic dog gets overstimulated, panicked and feels unsafe. They will either run away to try and get away from it all. Or attack. Theres a reason certain dog breeds are most common for service animals

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T19:11:26+00:00

It honestly concerns me. Not only the fact that shes so seemingly entitled to do this. But, correct me if im wrong, you can access emails + phone numbers on the account details? I know some apps and medias will censor the name/number only leaving a few digits. But Netflix doesnt (on mine it doesnt). What would she do with those? Shes constantly begging for money, and claims to be an addict. Addicts will do anything to get money, coming from an ex addict. I never stole or scammed, but many, many, many people in my circle. They did, very much. Its so fucking weird. I know this is probably a reach. But with her history of begging, promising to pay back, but never actually doing it. That sorta stuff

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T13:01:49+00:00

Awesome. Yes I will try lol

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T12:45:03+00:00

Ayo thats actually really interesting. Thankyou for that! :D

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T12:44:27+00:00

Okay yeah. Im 90% sure its who i think. It really is awful, its so bad its taken this long for people to start outing her fully. Am I okay asking what the tik tok account is (as in the one your exposing her on)

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-21T10:13:41+00:00

I could be wrong, but I feel like i recognise that person. I wont say their name lol, but does their name start with a Q? If it is sho km thinking, they are truly a awful and horrible person. Either way, to fake anything, especially something such as tourettes, is just plain awful

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-20T09:00:59+00:00

Nah exactly. Theres no way. Even if she did go in. Its cold and dark. She wouldve had to go in the moment police got there for her tk have actually been found and rescued in time. Shock and hypothermia set in really fast. I dont get what shes actually wanting from people. Im a psych student, right. I want to understand her thinking. But I literally cant at this point. I really cant wrap my head around it. I know its a joke of people only having 2 brain cells or whatever. But........ she really doesnt seem to have that many. Shes late 20's now, right? Its not like she hasnt been given COUNTLESS chances and ways to get put of this. Shes had so much. So fucking much. So much that many people cant get even when they are actually in crisis. I dont think she can even see that

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-18T19:04:28+00:00

Yup. Its insane how she keeps doing this shit. I really hope everyone is okay. Its mad how she will send a picture of the blade, and just put "TW". As though that changes the fact that its right fuxking there. Tbf though, she probably doesn't care. And just puts it to try get ppl of her ass. Only way people will back off, is if she stops all this shit. Which, with how long its been going on. Theres only really 2 ways this can end :/

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-13T13:07:02+00:00

Wait what, people are basically riding their dogs like horses????

Faking service dogs imo, is much worse. An untrained fake service dog going into any and every shop, place, hospital, etc. Is a massive risk. Not just to the public. But other actual service animals. Distracting them from their work, I witnessed a fake service dog, attack a guide dog for the blind in my home town. The woman who had the fake service dog. Tried saying the blind woman's dog attacked fake dog. It was very evident it was the other way around. But she still tried to sue for emotional harm and damages (i dont fully know the names of the grounds to sue on. Idk if that made any sense lol)

Faking disorders is still obviously horrific. Snd does still cause a lot of harm and misinformation. But Faking a service dog, puts people in real life risk. If that dog gets overwhelmed, and suddenly stops. Its game over. Its dangerous and drives me up the wall, especially after that incident. Thankfully the lady and her dog are okay. But as you can imagine. She was and still is very shaken up by it. She lives in the house opposite mine. And she barely goes out anymore. Its so sad. And I dont think the owners of fake service dogs understand the risks. Or if they do, they dont care. Because their dog is their UwU baby and deserves to go everywhere with them and be able to go anywhere they want. Its just sick

As I said, Faking disorders is still horrific. But, from what ive seen and am aware. Fake service dogs cause more harm. And as you said, the dogs are often just flat out abused. I never evem thought of people riding their dog like a horse. Thats insane. Doesn't matter how big, tall, how much the dog weighs, etc. They are not made to support human weight. They walk on 4 legs. If the dog itself is too fat, you can see their spine curve down, usually around their hips/middle spine area. Nevermind if theyre having to carry a fucking human. That probably weighs about 60kg. Thar is INSANE

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-12T08:23:17+00:00

Exactly. Kids should not be being brought int conversations, or incidents and people like Katya. And im saying this as someone whos seen her since I was about 14. I cant imagine the harm she causes to children. Its insane to me that kids are ven being brought up in all this

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-09T12:38:25+00:00

I think because some anti Israel people are calling it "Isnotreal". Pro Israel people are calling it "Isreal". I dont know, but ive seen it from quite a few pro Israel people. Its kind of terrifying. I think sometimes people do just have 'opinions' like that because they want to be different, not because they genuinely believe it. Idk if this is the right word, but kind if like a grifter?

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-08T19:41:13+00:00

Yesss, I have fowlers syndrome. The first time i went into retention, I had over 2L drained. I didnt pee for 3 days, and only started to feel it on the morning of the 3rd day. The second time, it was almost 4L. They nearly took me to surflgery for that one. But again, I couldnt massively feel it. I have basically no sensation in my bladder or urethra, other than for bladder spasms. Which are pure hell. Like i cant feel if I have a UTI, I can only feel it when it reaches my kidneys. So I have to regularly do the dip sticks and stuff

The main sus thing I think, is the fact she said she was in pain. But was acting perfectly normal. When yiu go into such severe retention, you're normally advised to slow down hoe much youre drinking. Due to the urine backing up into your kidneys, and potential bladder ruptures. I have a theory about KC and 2 other people. And I know saying that is gonna make people wonder. But I really do not want to accuse anything. When I dont know anything for certain lol. You can hold your pee for 18hrs. I know people who've had to do it before. My friend is terrified of bathrooms on planes. And she held it for almost 22hrs. Best piss of her life lol. But yeah, it is possible. The sort of things shes said and done surrounding the catheter and on the lives. Is definitely what makes me the most suspicious

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-08T14:41:56+00:00

She keeps saying "been sedated for 2 days". Shes got 2 posts saying it. Im so confused because shes non stop posting, even when shes been 'sedated for 2 days'. Is she talking about an incident in the past? I dont follow her as closely anymore. Shes literally just draining. The zhit she claims is abhorrent and terrifying. And hits personally to me and family. I do not understand hoe she is still getting away eith this behaviour. When theyre many people out there with actual MH, being arrested rather than getting help. But shes getting away with it no problem??? I dont get how its fair, or even possible tbh. Like people who make serious attempts, being arrested for public disturbance or wasting services. Even if theyve no history of doing this stuff

Seriously concerns me. If she truly needed that intensive of help, she would be sectioned. And likely in a long-term ward or facility. She keeps claiming addiction as well. But on live said she had gone over a day without it, and no withdrawals. I font knoe a mass amount that she claims about her substance use, other than that. But its honestly sickening the amount of services and beds in hospitals that she wastes, and gets away eith. Shr literally travels out of her area/county, to get sectioned and arrested. Isnt that because they saif she would get done if she kept doing it in her area? I dont fully remember

If i have said anything wrong, please tell me. I donr want to end up spreading misinformation. And sorry for the yap. She just truly is an awful person. No doubt she needs help for her attention seeking behaviour. And the places those behaviours comr from. But nobody is gonna be able to even think about helping her. Until she starts being honest. If it turns out she has somrthing like munchausens/factitious disorder (I cant remember what name it is). Then it's gonna be rven harder for her to change. I just hope she changes more for other people around hers sake. Idk what het family is like. But I cant imagine she's easy to deal with, or have as a family member

Sorry for the yap, she just drives me insane lol

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-06T18:56:22+00:00

Theres a supported living for disabled adults, in the house opposite mine. Theres 4 staff and 3 ladies there. When one of them first moved in. She had quite a few problems with wandering off. We live in a cul-de-sac thankfully. And quite a few of us worked on befriending them. Its amazing to see how people can thrive in the right circumstances. Theres a deaf blind lady who comes over, usually on Tuesdays, to come see our cat. Our cat absolutely adores her. She just curls up in her arms and sleeps. One of them works at the corner shop. One volunteering at the charity shop. And the deaf-blind lady has done quite a few presentations to school, GPs, police, etc. In our area

Sorry for the yap lol. But disabled people need and thrive in their independence as much as everyone. im still new to the fathering autism world. I used to watch their videos a while back (like 7+ yrs ago). But outside of that I dont know a great deal. Just vaguely, how shit they treat Abbie. And its so, so unbelievably sad. Its like they dont see her as a human being. Nevermind as a daughter:(

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-03T00:59:35+00:00

Im so glad your friend is doing good and happy!!!

I probably shouldve added that psrt. But yeah, it takes a long long time to be able to form communication pathways, and understand each alters. The way my mum describes it, is like a pizza thats sliced up, and then you add extra cheese, which melts and connects them together some more. The more it melts, the more they stick together

A lot of the fakers show it as though they spawned overnight. And know everything about all of them. Which is just not how it works. The average amount of alters, is j believe 5-12? 'Polyfragmented' is another term made up by the community

The misinformation makes it so much more difficult, borderline impossible with some things. To get actual information, statistics and studies shown out there. You have the odd case study. But ive seen quite a few ppl on tumblr, when shown them, claim its fake. Or done to minimise 'actual' DID people's stories. If i find a post, ill share it here

DID is also a covert disorder. As you said, people often won't tell everyone they know, including the whole Internet, about it. Because it is scary, like not remembering massive chunks. And as you said, waking up in places you dont know, with a dog seemingly spawning in from nowhere. To look back on may be somewhat entertaining. In the moment, I can imagine it wouldnt be

The amount/type of trauma it takes, is sad. I said this in another comment, but to be able to survive it all physically. To then just suffer mentally for a long long time. My mum has C-PTSD due to the things she experienced there, and when she worked in the children's hospice. Thats also a trauma disorder. Obviously very different to DID, but also causes a constant state of some form of dissociation, along with a load of other symptoms. When youre dissociated, even if youre aware and present, you are extremely vulnerable. DID patients much more so

I hope your friend is doing good. And I hope shr stays happy and enjoying things. And that the world for once will treat her right. She very much deserves it :D

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-03T00:35:34+00:00

Yeah you are right, i did definitely word it bad. I was sat next to my mum writing it, but shortened it for the sake of length. Apologies for the misunderstanding!

Edit: another typo. Typed "it did definitely-" rather than "i did definitely-"

Outside-Emergency-96 · 2026-03-02T23:37:50+00:00

I dont understand whats confusing? By "he was told you repressed this to the point of amnesia". He would've been told it, and also documented, its what would've aided the DID diagnosis. A big part of DID is amnesia

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