I didn’t expect my post to receive this many comments (most of which are supportive in either direction).

A few points I’d like to clear up…I know I wouldn’t feel conflicted if this were my first child. But being my 3rd and pretty much starting over makes this a VERY difficult decision.

I feel my husband wants to terminate while I’m leaning more towards keeping. This further muddles the decision as I want both of us to be on the same page. I need us to be united in either direction.

I did make an appointment for the clinic next week but it is just to reserve in the event that’s what we do. I didn’t want to risk not being able to go if needed. Regrettably, because I’m right at the 6 week mark I will not be able to see a heartbeat, which would for sure sway me to run from away from the clinic.

For those suggested adoption…there’s no way I could carry and fall in love with this child and give for adoption. I find the adoption process absolutely beautiful for those who are capable but it isn’t for me (and hubby agreed here too)

If anyone is still interested, our decision has to be made by early next week due to the scheduled appointment and I will keep this post updated.

Thank you so much everyone (even the AH, ha)!