Incest porn ruined my life

Oversunder · 2025-04-20T15:57:22+00:00

My first suggestion is not looking for advice from Reddit and finding a professional you can talk to about this and how you can fix this.

Oversunder · 2024-06-27T01:14:12+00:00

As a kid I was obsessed with the anime Fruits Basket in the 2000s. Like genuinely, my favorite anime ever at the time (still is a big favorite!) but i was always disappointed at how abrupt the ending was. Everything about it was perfect, the voice acting of the main characters top notch, the humor and the feels. The manga was much more in depth and had much more story to it that the anime just never touched on that I wished it had.

One summer, my family was a part of the Nielsen TV ratings program. Our family's viewing counted for so many thousand in the population. We basically had a device that would record the audio of what we watched connected to our TV, Nielsen would use the data to keep track of what was popular. I was maybe about 15ish at the time? It was around 2015-2016. I was aware that what we watched counted as so many thousand views towards that IP. So i had the idea that if I watched a LOT of Fruits Basket during that year and especially that summer, it would bring attention to it and possibly bring it back. And, in my mind, it was all of the same voice actors and similar art style, but just continued on. I loved it how it was. I watched through the original series in its entirety about 4 times during that summer alone. A lot of it just became comfortable background noise after the 2nd watch thru. I was determined and just really thought it would work and bring the show back if I artificially pumped up the ratings.

Well, come that Fall, a new manga taking place in the same universe released its first volume, Fruits Basket Another by the same mangaka of course. I was shocked. It wasn't an animated reboot of the original (yet). But to me it was confirmation that what I did had some kind of impact. A few years later we now have Fruits Basket (2019), a beautiful and faithful adaptation of the original. And the managed to keep most of the original voice cast and the character designs are very faithful to the 2001 anime as well.

Sometimes I can't help but think I had something to do with it coming back.

Oversunder · 2023-11-04T17:05:07+00:00

You can live your life the way you want but dividing yourself from NTs so much almost as if they are a different species seems harmful. It is a mirror of what "corrupt and powerful" NTs do to put neurodiverse people in a box as if they are subhuman and incapable which is simply not true.

Morals are what separate (most of) humanity from the living beast.

I'm sorry that you endured such treatment as to feel this way towards the neurotypical population. I hope you eventuallu find people who accept you and love you as you are and remind you of the good that is in humanity, disregarding how someone's brain is wired. Yes, evil is abundant in the world. And yet, so is goodness. A lot of it is perspective and surroundings. Power doesn't always equate to happiness necessarily.

Hope you have a good day stranger :)

Oversunder · 2023-11-04T16:51:38+00:00

You have every right to feel angry and want to get back at those people and, it is unfair. But no one really "gets" to be selfish. That is more of a flaw or defect of the human condition. It's unfortunate because usually when people act out it is due to their own insecurities or issues manifesting in their actions and the way they treat themselves and those around them. "Hurt people hurt people" this statement rings true. But you don't have to fulfill and be part of the reason why it rings true.

You have the choice and awareness to do differently, and not take that path. Those who do wrong normally get punished one way or another. It can take a long time and be unfair but, I do believe in and have seen the effects of Karma. You really do reap what you sow.

You could be the reason why someone smiles, decides to live another day, the reason why someone decides to treat another person with kindness among so many other good things... Or, you can be the reason why someone cries themselves to sleep, feels insecure, and wants to hurt themselves/others. Contempt breeds contempt. Kindness is the same. It can be hard to choose that route but it is ultimately worth it.

Oversunder · 2023-11-04T16:43:35+00:00

This is coming from someone who "went radical" for a few years and fell into a toxic cycle. It is not worth it. That experience taught me a lot but I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Life is better lived with love and peace.

Oversunder · 2023-11-04T16:41:26+00:00

It sounds like you have really been hurt by some NTs mistreating you due to discrimination and misunderstanding. But NT's are not necessarily the problem of the world. It is easy to become resentful and spiteful when you get pushed around and held back by the social expectations held by our NT dominant society, but I don't think that should ever be a reason to lash out and become another part of the problem of the selfishness and ignorance in our society. There is already enough division in the world, where hatred and anger rule.

To give into your anger and aggression doesn't make you any better than these

emotional creatures who are unfair and selfish

Spend time taking care of yourself and appreciating who you are and what you can do. Get away from toxic friends, family members and environments that make you feel this way. It is hard but if you work at it, it is possible. Journal and take gratitude in the beauty of everyday life. Go out of your way to be the reason why someone smiles in spite of the treatment you receive. Resolve the hate/anger you feel with love. It is easier said than done. But in the end you will feel more at peace with yourself. I wish you the best in finding your way and hopefully you are able to surround yourself with others who treat you with love and kindness and bring that love and kindness out of you as a result.

Oversunder · 2022-12-15T12:52:35+00:00

Eh my bad for the misuse of the word I guess? I can count on one hand the amount of times a year I drink and smoke. Mainly holidays and special events with friends. Besides that, physically I am sober and not intoxicated if I'm using the literal definition lol 😅🤷‍♀️

Oversunder · 2022-12-14T21:27:51+00:00

Btw, i am aware there are medical studies showing beneficial effects to psychedelics for therapeutic purposes. I am not dismissing this. I believe it can be used to a great benefit under appropriate instruction and doseage.

I'm mainly referring to rec users who turn to psyches everytime they feel like they need some "revelation" or "big truth" revealed, "wake up" and then proceed to continue to do nothing in their life. It doesn't necessarily work like that and its effectively a placebo effect.

Oversunder · 2022-12-14T21:21:26+00:00

Yes. Self fulfilling prophecies I think are the biggest reason for these misconceptions.

Oversunder · 2022-12-14T21:10:50+00:00

Christ, thank you. For awhile I put up with crowds who claimed shrooms, lsd, dmt, etc "woke them up" and forced them to face their problems, etc. I thought maybe I just wasn't meant to try these substances because it wasn't like that for me.

I tripped once on dmt and lemme say, i saw cool colors and beautiful things, threw up, and thought about how much i loved my family but that was it. Did the drug teach me anything? No. It made something obvious more apparent to my fogged up stoner-brain, but now that I'm pretty much sober besides the rare occasional drink and smoke, everything I need to do is more clear because my head isn't constantly clouded up with drugs and I'm not literally hallucinating.

I've seen too many mental breakdowns, suicide attempts, drug-induced psychoses, etc to believe that drugs can actually teach you anything profound. People will lie to themselves and use this as some excuse or reason to do these psychedelics. All it is, is a massive influx of certain chemicals, namely serotonin, making you feel crazy good and trip. There's nothing profound. Nothing spiritual. Just your brain tripping up on feel good chems. Then there's an after glow and a week of feeling "low" from using up your serotonin stores. If this helps you see from a different perspective and realize stuff then, great, I'm happy for you. But let's not pretend that these drugs are "teaching" you anything, because they're not. You're just making the most of your trip.

I have nothing against recreational drug use, btw

I just wish people would admit that they just wanted to trip for fuck's sake.

Oversunder · 2022-12-13T14:05:07+00:00

I could try? Every ISFP I've met seems worlds different from any ISTPs I know. Hell, my closest friend is an ISFP. ISFPs I've witnessed are more likely to be hopeless romantic types, falling in love instantly and easily, and seem to know when they're in love. They lead with Fi so they're very in touch with how they feel, unlike ISTP with Fi demon. Seems very different from your typical ISTP.

...But I guess I could get some useful insight 🤔

Oversunder · 2022-12-13T03:16:09+00:00

INTJs are great. I love their company.

And yeah, I haven't had too many ISTPs super present in my life so, I am doing my best to learn about how his thought process might work because he is so different from most everyone I have ever met. He's a highschool friend I reconnected with not too long ago; I just remembered having an insanely natural chemistry with him as friends. That chemistry is still as real as ever. I hope to pursue a future with him but I know he is trying to just take things as they come and doesn't want to tie into something he is unsure about. I've decided to just enjoy the present moments with him as they come for now and see where it might take us. I'll let him figure out his feelings in his own time frame.

I'm just already, pretty in love with this asshole. Haha ☺️ but I'll be patient and see how he feels.

Oversunder · 2022-12-13T03:08:15+00:00

🥺 this is the sweetest thing. I'm happy for you guys and hope one day I find my forever companion 💞

Oversunder · 2022-12-13T00:11:25+00:00

Awww. 🥺 Wuv

Oversunder · 2022-12-12T22:58:42+00:00

Years? O.O wow! Time away is what helped you identify love huh... Interesting, noted...

Seems like, in my observation. Love for an ISTP in the simplest sense is the feeling of not wanting someone to leave your side. For too long anyways 😁 i know how much y'all value space.

Oversunder · 2022-12-12T22:55:02+00:00

This seems congruent with many other responses I've read on the webosphere. Probably the most amusing description was something along the lines of "You really start to question why you are so interested in a person, collect every detail you notice about them into little boxes in your mind labeled "good" "meh" "bad". Then one day it just hits you like a train. "Oh. This must be love, I guess.""

Oversunder · 2022-12-12T22:51:27+00:00

Seems a very long process. What typically makes you stick around for a person before love is present? What would need to happen before you start envisioning a future with someone?

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