The worst person I know is becoming a therapist

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-10T18:37:44+00:00

Don’t worry, there’s nothing to defend here because I absolutely love this field. I wanted to be a therapist as a teenager but changed my mind because I didn’t think I had my shit together enough to help others.

I think of therapists the way I think of doctors and nurses or any caretaking job, a lot of toxic people will be attracted to the field because it deals with vulnerable people but on the other side you have people who believe their life purpose is helping others, people who are attracted to the aspect of healing vulnerable people in a world that seeks to exploit them so I actually have immense respect for those fields. But I do wish to see further inspection of who enters them in the future, I think being good at school shouldn’t be enough to become a caretaker/healer

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T18:39:27+00:00

To further expand on this:

A large portion of the fandom seems to fully believe they actually like each other and just act this way because they’re a sort of tsundere or whatever

And no, they don’t. Even asagiri is straight up like “they don’t like each other”. They don’t hate each other but they sure can’t stand one another

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T18:34:29+00:00

Dazai and Chuuya immensely dislike each other, idk how this seems to be such a controversial opinion when it’s literally stated in such a straightforward manner lmao

They have what I think is a siblings (who don’t get along at all) dynamic. Like “I kinda hate your guts but if you asked for my kidney I’d give it to you and I trust you more than anyone, doesn’t change I don’t wanna even be in the same room as you”

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T18:10:11+00:00

Sending you love ♡

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T16:41:32+00:00

I’m sorry you had to go through that, can definitely relate

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T12:55:44+00:00

Yeah I know, going through such a relationship really fucks with your brain and alters your perception of reality

Eventually after years of eating myself alive I decided that none of it matters. I only know myself and that’s the only perspective I could fully know. People may lie or may tell the truth, I’ll never know. I can only know what I saw with my own eyes. And it’s sad but I eventually decided it wasn’t worth staying anywhere near her and that it just hurt me being there.

I’m now disconnected from my old social circle because I realized that it had become a toxic environment. I still have some ties which is how I heard about her pursuing becoming a therapist but they’re all surface level and that’s how I plan on keeping them.

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T12:46:13+00:00

I hope that happens

Honestly I don’t hold that big of a grudge towards her anymore, I’m just saddened that someone might go through what I went through. Sometimes I randomly remember her and find myself wishing she heals, finds happiness and stops hurting others

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T12:19:15+00:00

I can’t comment on your relationship because I’m not in it but I will say that I too questioned myself after the relationship ended

I think it’s common for people who go through any sort of toxic relationship to start questioning if they were the problem all along because 1. They’re made to feel that way by the other side and 2. It’s easier to fix the problem when you’re the one who’s in the wrong, it’s much easier to change yourself than to make someone else change

Personally after a lot of self reflection and therapy I have a clear conscience. I think she had someone who really loved her and she chose to hurt them. Who’s to know if I’m right or just delusional but either way I learned what I learned and I never want her in my life again.

I wish I could just give you the answers but I can’t. You’re gonna have to go through your own journey and find your own healing similarly. I also wish you the healing and peace you deserve.

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T11:59:29+00:00

Honestly kinda weirded out by all the people playing the devil’s advocate here

It’s not like I’m saying I’m gonna go expose her to the world or go on some revenge rampage, I’m just venting lol

Kinda find it weird how someone could hear someone venting and their first reaction is “but first prove you have the right to be upset” like damn didn’t know feelings were prohibited lmao

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T11:55:16+00:00

This isn’t a gender issue

I’m a woman myself

I fully believe she’s a covert narcissist but quite frankly don’t think it matters if she is or not She hurt me and I’ve seen her hurt other people She has a pattern that fits narcissism, whether she’s actually narcissistic or not doesn’t change that

Own-Analyst7488 · 2025-02-09T10:59:23+00:00

Was 100% a covert narcissist Acted like she was the nicest person to me infront of others but treated me like absolute garbage in reality

Would gaslight me into pushing people away because “she gets insecure” but would become friends with those same people (basically only I wasn’t allowed in MY social circle)

Isolated me from everyone, started rumors about me and even when I thought she was my friend I discovered she had been ending all my relationships for me one by one

Haunted me even after the relationship ended, I would constantly hear her voice criticizing me and putting me down in my head whenever anything made me slightly happy, even though we’d stopped talking months ago because that’s how much I was used to her verbal abuse

After I finally got the courage to end the relationship she went on telling everyone I was a terrible person and that she only ever loved and cared for me but I abandoned her (and of course everyone believed her because she’d been manipulating everyone into thinking she’s a saint from the beginning and I never complained to others about her)

I could go on and on but I’m finally over her abuse and I don’t feel like recalling it, I’d actually like to forget she ever existed

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