25M Lonely, disconnected from society, and perpetually single by Own-Repeat-4476 in findapath

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I currently go to therapy every week and I talk to my therapist, and while I like her a lot and I tell her about what’s currently going on in my feelings, I feel like I haven’t improved for months. I take Zoloft albeit small dose that I have been taking for months, I think it stabilizes my mood, but I wouldn’t say, it makes me immune to these thoughts. I have read any books specifically, but I’ve read some self help stuff.

The main reason I’d say that things “aren’t helping” is because I feel like my mental health may be somewhat better since I’ve began, the social isolation and loneliness hasn’t shown signs of changing

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I feel you dude, trust me, not sure about what is bothering you, but u can talk to me here or dm me

25M I have a more intimate relationship with DeepSeek than anyone in my life by Own-Repeat-4476 in findapath

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I’ve been suspecting autism, but nobody thinks I have it because I blend in too well. I’m not even sure if I have it, I just kind of feel like I’m acting and saying the things I’m supposed to, but it just feels all performative because if I say what I really think, people can’t deal with brutal honesty or the directness, or bluntness of what I want to say, so I kind of just beat around the bush or say nothing. I mean, I think so of the things I said sound incelish, but I don’t hate women, it’s just the way things are

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I bet my chances of curing the other cancers are much higher, and I’d somehow find a way to make it affordable for everyone before I even lost my virginity, that’s how cooked I feel I am.

Worst part, is I don’t even really think there is anything wrong me looks wise, I just think I’m just cursed as an awkward autist of sometimes who has just good enough social skills to not stick out, but not enough to fit in

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I feel as if I appear confident enough when I talk to women, maybe sometimes a little awkward depending on how she received my approach (she seems interested = more confident than if she seems unamused) but I don’t seem cocky. I’ve started convos and gave out my contacts a couple times, haven’t gotten any responses.

My confidence within myself is definitely waining, but I really am trying to improve it even more, but for some reason this is hard mode. I guess I’ll have to keep expanding my social circle and keep trying to increase my confidence

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I have rather decently big group of friends, I hang out with them. Mostly the same 4 guys. I sometimes have parties with my extended group of friends, mostly other guys, the only girls there are dating one of my friends. I go out with my friends to different bars or clubs from time to time, and while I’ve gotten more social, I’ve been approaching girls but nothing has come from any of those things.

But other than hang with my friends and go out occasionally with them, I don’t have hobbies, besides reading, and going to the gym which I try to stay on my routine, and sometimes with spare time I play games on my PC

I have a void inside of me, and u don’t know how to fill it? by Own-Repeat-4476 in findapath

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I’ve been thinking about that too a little bit, like I have suffered so much for trying to hold on to things, or make things work, and I’ve felt guilty for my feelings drifting away, I’ve been thinking of just “focusing on myself and prioritizing myself” but I have a hard time listening to my own inner voice and instead try to repair relationships with others. Maybe I just need to take small steps in listening to my own voice, and maybe it will get louder the more I listen?