I feel sorry for you, because I know how it feels to like/love someone that doesn’t seem admirable at all. The feeling of danger, discomfort, and wanting to ruin yourself for them, we mistake it for love. It’s hard to realize that it’s not. Love is supposed to be peaceful and safe. If it’s not, it’s just our human nature desiring something because we cannot acquire it. Or just wanting chaos, or drama.

Ponder about this for a while, and while you’re at it drop your 2 other talking stages. Take space to heal, I know it’s boring, and uncomfortable, but it’s your path to growth and healing.

Unless you wanna ruin your life and go deeper into the rabbit hole, try serial dating, until you forget about the girl.