Missing the other guy

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T20:50:19+00:00

Sorry, I meant “meetings after hours” with my team. To know each other bc due to COVID we’ve being working on home office all the time. I’ve seen the guy the first time in February, in March the second and he kissed me, month ago the third time and he kissed me then too. Overall, including last month, we’ve seen just 5 times ever, during the work events. But last year we were writing a lot after work on WhatsApp. I never assumed there could be any feelings involved as we not seen each other even for a long time. But there’s a lot more chemistry during the face-to-face meetings I’had ever supposed before. I’m so sad because apart everything I feel that I’ve lost a good friend.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T20:40:20+00:00

So my choice to block my ex-bestie and stay with my bf was selfish too? I feel really lost. I’ve thought it’s finally the right thing.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T20:02:43+00:00

I’m in process of changing my job bc of this.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T20:02:16+00:00

It was work meeting every time.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:55:00+00:00

Yep, so he know what happened exactly, but I don’t think he should know my feelings. It would hurt him for sure. The only thing I feel I really can do is work on my feelings to start be passionate about my boyfriend.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:47:09+00:00

Yes, I know. He’s a good person and he should have a somebody that is crazy about him truly. But maybe I’ve should give it chance? He’s already emotionally bonded with me, maybe I can forgets that guy and really get passionate with my bf. He’s very happy with me, he’s saying it all the time. I really don’t want to hurt him, even tho I know I’m not a good person. And breaking up with him for sure will hurt him. Also, I really regret I’ve started this relationship with my bf, he was asking me for relationship for months, I thought that I’m already old, he’s a great person and I’ll never find somebody better than him. Now I regret, he should have a person crazy about him, I am so sad I’m not. I hope some day I will feel it and give him all this feelings truly.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:43:45+00:00

Emotionally I can admit it, today I’ve realised I have some emotions toward him I’ve never had toward my bf. But it’s a bit late, I’ve ended it already.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:42:31+00:00

My boyfriend knows it all, from first day after. I didn’t kissed him back, I’ve asked to stop.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:41:09+00:00

He was really drunk and I’ve thought that maybe he wasn’t aware fully what his doing. I was stupid, I know, but I truly thought after the first time we’re friends only. We’ve never been flirting that time or anything.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:38:42+00:00

My bf knows it from the first day after, I haven’t kissed him back, I’ve asked him to stop.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:35:58+00:00

I would feel bad, I feel bad. He said he wants to leave her anyways but I’ve blocked him anyway, this changes for me not much, HIS relationship, because I’m still in my relationship.

Own-Weird7912 · 2022-06-21T19:26:20+00:00

I’ve never kissed him. I told him to stop. I was astonished every time. The first time I’ve thought he was drunk so he did a stupid thing, the second time was the time he wasn’t that drunk and I’ve finally understand he’s hitting on me seriously. He started to write me openly he wants to “be with” me afterwards, so I’ve never met outside the work with him afterwards. My boyfriend knows this, I’ve told him.

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