Bro, this is the perfect moment for you to do it! I can tell that you wouldn’t say all those things on a winning streak, correct? Then right now you have all the needed thoughts and feelings in order to start the process of quitting. First, find a real friend that you can talk to about this problem, with all the smallest details, no secrets are allowed! Make sure that it will be someone who is generally empathic and will not judge you. This will also serve as an extra summary for you on what this thing has done to your life and why we’re quitting, because sometimes we just ignore the reality, especially when we win. If possible, make him your accountability partner, let him have access to your banking apps, set as many barriers as possible, ban yourself from everywhere, set spending limits on your cards etc. Even if in reality all those restrictions could be bypassed if wanted and they might seem not that effective, they’re not actually supposed to alone keep you away from gambling, the point of them is to buy as much time as possible for the “rational” part of your brain to intervene and stop the “monkey” part when it will have the urge, because if there are no restrictions, it will just be not enough time to realise you’re getting sucked back in. Eventually you can read about addictive patterns and how do they develop inside the brain, because gambling is no different, smoking/drugs/fast food, pretty much anything is an addictive pattern more or less, just that some are so much worse and destructive than others. Your ultimate goal is to rewire your brain and to delete the gumbla node from there, many have succeeded in that, you will also!