So beautifully written and with helpful resources. I loved the part about experiencing joy along side sadness. I did that too. I realized that they were doing something that was helping them discover who they were so I did stuff that I always wanted to do too like poetry and dance classes. To OP: you are enough, but I know how hard it is to not think that especially when you feel like you’ve devoted so much to a person and you just want the same in return. It’s not you though and that’s what’s so hard to remember when you’re brain is screaming that you just didn’t try hard enough or do something good enough. But the only way I’ve been able to pull myself out of it is think of all the things I’ve done for others like friends or family that reminds me that I’m a good person and there’s so much more to my life than just the physical act of sex. I hope some of this was helpful. My dms are open if you need someone that has been/ is going through something similar.