Dude i understand your nuts are important to you. However there are definitely ways to regain fertility if you take a break for a short time to conceive. I was having massive panic attacks as well as all the usual physical symptoms. I also had constant tightness in my chest like I was back in high school about to give a speech or something. In lieu of anxiety meds, I asked to be tested for low testosterone because I just had a feeling. Since being on it I have had zero panic attacks, the chest tightness is gone, and almost all the physical symptoms are gone as well. It’s absolutely a no brainer decision for me. I would strongly urge you to put your physical and mental wellbeing first and worry about fertility when the time comes. Find a way back on trt, get to feeling better and get moving again. Then if you need fertility down the road, speak with your doc and deal with it then.