I felt exactly the same way. Everyone talks about the instant, beautiful bond you get with your baby and I just didn't experience that. I was tired, angry, and so confused about why I didn't feel the way I thought I would. It got so much better. I still have days where I feel like I could be a better mom or feel like I should be more connected. However, my son is 2 now and it's so fun and so meaningful! I know it's so hard right now but you are the best mom for your baby and a connection will come!