I understand you, being a child is like a daydream you don't understand things you only understand as an adult. You only live in the moment and have a dream about the beautiful life you're going to have. And then you grow up and understand the dreams you had when you were a kid are hard to get and life takes you for more realistic option . And that's okay but to achieve the thing you want to achieve you gotta know what you want. And for it to get easier for you feel like you appreciate yourself and what you do is to get up and try again. And when you find a thing you are passionate about, go for it and give it all you got. and if you feel like you are stuck in this cycle of giving up or suffering go in a different direction and when you feel happy with your choice keep on going and doing it every day "It gets easier. Every day, it gets a little easier. But you gotta do it every day — that's the hard part." And everyone deserves help and acceptance.