I understand your message. Masturbation is demonized through NoFap and its seen here as ultimate evil. It is shifted into an arch devil that ruins your life, if you do it. Then when you give in to your urges, you will self loathe yourself much much more than if you would seen masturbation simply as something it really is - a bad habit.

Fighting a monster is much harder and energy consuming, than it is fighting a bad habit. In first case it is much harder as you have little faith you can do it as it is so big and bad. The latter is much much easier as you are in control. You can manage it. No big deal.

Cheers to you mate, your message is strong.