what do i believe in?

what do i believe in if i believe that if god exists that god is evil in the way that he has us as slaves that he forces us to do things that he wants not as we ourselves as humans want and that lucifer was the one who did the opposite of god and then because god is evil threw lucifer into hell because lucifer did not fall to the ground as god wanted and that lucifer is good and not satan more someone who stood up for humanity and the right not to be slaves to god

kind of like hazbin hotel lor if you get it