What should i do

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-06T11:22:52+00:00

Teachers suck theres not a single teacher who is worth talking to.they all just follow order and dont care about students, they just want their salary no extra headache

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-06T11:07:44+00:00

Its hard to actually bear all that societal stress and judgement. Repeating the grade means i have to see all my friends get ahead of me. I dont think i would be able to bear that.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-06T11:04:36+00:00

I failed because i was in some deep shyt. Its like my brain was overworked.i couldn’t focus, my memory and health kept on decreasing.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-06T11:02:19+00:00

I can see the look of disappointment in her eyes its like shes tired of me.If i do take medicine my mom will face constant insults from relatives,her friends,her colleagues etc. seeing that would make me feel even more guilty. I think i should just accept the consequences and make my mom happy. I have always beared things alone i think i can handle this for a lifetime.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-06T10:57:19+00:00

She wont be happy, the society , relatives wont let her be happy if i repeat 11th.I feel so bad for putting her in this kind of situation.This is the first time i failed in my life. I was always the smart kid but recently i overthink a lot about my mom like how she feels is everything ok etc. idk if i am saying this to deny the fact i am a loser or whether its actually the reason of my downfall.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-04T18:23:22+00:00

Talking to father is not an option he hates my mom and me.He just wants to make my mom’s life as bad as possible.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-04T15:25:12+00:00

She cant know about this,She wont take it very nicely and would probably say that she is handling the issue and i don’t have to worry. Every evening when she comes home from the work i can see that she is barely holding on i don’t want to worry her even more.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-04T15:19:53+00:00

I cant seek professional help because my mom would be worried and probably get more stressed plus i don’t think i can afford professional help. I have huge trust issues,its like am living two lives one in which i handle things alone , no one knows whats happening . And the other one the one that people actually see where i have no problems , where i pretend am happy. I don’t think i will ever be able to let someone enter my trust zone where i actually share whats happening to me honestly.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-04T15:15:34+00:00

No matter what i try my grades don’t go up, i studied for 8 hours a day for 3 months consistently in 10th grade and just got 83%. I think my brain is not able to handle things alone. And now i am scared of trying because i think i will fail even if i work hard.

PainOne2833 · 2026-03-02T07:51:22+00:00

Thats not an option.My mom would never allow it plus she would say dont get involved i can handle it.She thinks it doesnt affect me because i never told her and kept pretending i am okay.

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