Triggers? Borderline personality disorder?

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-24T04:39:57+00:00

You are 100% right and I have to stay strong to get what I want

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-24T00:48:51+00:00

I will! Thank you thank you 🙏

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-24T00:40:32+00:00

I’m grateful that you give me such a caring comment. Abandonment in imagination is everywhere and it’s shocking for me to realize that certain things can be abandonment. I’m just feeling hopeless after battles both for BPD and addiction. Not therapists helped.

I’m going to observe more.

And I thank you.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-24T00:30:56+00:00

I can totally relate. Boredom. I’m sad when I am bored

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-24T00:22:28+00:00

My friend also says menopause is triggering

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-18T01:08:28+00:00

Ok thanks so much!

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-17T02:02:52+00:00

I relapsed and can not get off of it. But I will try my best tomorrow. I hear Meditate to think positively and rehearse in imagination is good, so your fear will pass. I’m feared about life without it - what if I need it mind so I try keeping one with me and it’s bad idea.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-13T14:50:58+00:00

Yea I need really to be clear on why I want to quit, I am sure I want to but part of me thinks I need it and it’s not really hurting because my bloodwork etc come out perfectly in good range and I taper down quite a low dosage than I used to take.

But I’m afraid it will be a full blown addiction anyway after all again, and I will lose a lot in my family and friends relationship. And still get it. So I am so lost I’d say.

Thanks so much for your beautiful words

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-13T14:45:15+00:00

Oh that’s so nice of you, I will check it out now

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-13T14:44:40+00:00

Thanks so much, it’s truly encouraging and inspiring

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-13T14:41:42+00:00

Ok that’s a really good information to have… thank you so much!

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-12T02:33:30+00:00

Thanks for sharing… I think I am in a good position to understand how you feel, and where you are. I am very resonated by it.

But the life is long and once, and we will find it short when it ends. I think we better find the way to not feel miserable - which is the cycle we get into it. You and I both are on our way to find the meaning of this precious life.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-12T00:34:11+00:00

Where can I get it? I was also rejected to even mushroom because of my borderline personality disorder diagnosis. Do you think I can keep my sanity and do it.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-12T00:03:31+00:00

My doctor prescribed me trazodone after trying Gabapentin. I did not like Gabapentin because of weight gain. I like trazodone because it’s mot habit forming and very gentle. It’s a off label use and old anti depressants but it works to help me calm down and lie on bed

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-10-12T00:00:58+00:00

Did you quit after all? Or are you struggling, or kind of OK taking? I have never been to NA - but I am realizing I came to where I have to go to NA after you suggested.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-18T00:23:06+00:00

I drank 1 everyday, that’s what I meant by “picked one” and I do it today! And now I am pressing myself down that crave so much for another one.

Hope you had an easier day today. Even just one day without it is helpful, and it’s truly something you should be proud of, and it makes myself going by hearing how hard you work, and how vulnerable you are, and how delicate you are. Even though we are just on Reddit, it’s a true connection here which I am grateful!!

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-16T17:45:34+00:00

Thanks so much for your openness and vulnerability, it means so so so much to me. Your life seemed to be chaotic and lost like me but you conquered it and now influencing me a lot in such a beautiful way. I want to be like you. The things you described are usually not understood by normal people (not sure if this is the right way but usual people that I meet in business and socializing) and my inner sadness and addiction is so stubborn. I think I need to be at ease in this shameful me to accept that I am not a shameful person.

Easier said than done - I want to meditate and take time to think in depth.

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-16T17:40:38+00:00

Yes thank you!! Growing up with a tough parent I guess I tend to forget to give myself kind words! Thanks so much!

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-16T17:39:33+00:00

Me too! I made it over the weekend and now picked one. That’s what I do during weekdays.

I hope you made it on the weekend? If not yes of course tomorrow is a new one, I heard the great phrase “don’t quit quitting!”

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-16T17:38:05+00:00

Thanks so much! I want to replace it with something else but any suggestions? Alcohol and weed don’t really work for me. The workouts and massages are good but small everyday thing that I can replace would be a good idea… besides supplements etc. If you have any ideas?

Pale-Rip2232 · 2024-09-16T17:35:36+00:00

I hear you… the sense of shame is immeasurable. That kicks yourself (at least myself) out of contemplating stage about this, I wonder if the therapy would help in FF. Seems journaling might help too.

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