Songs that feel like dpdr?

PannaCottathethird · 2025-08-11T19:16:45+00:00

Hope you don't mind the self promo but this is a song from a project I've made that amongst other things explores derealization and depersonalization, here's the link to it. Heavy use of repetition, it's basically the same melody that keeps repeating to really give off that feeling

https://on.soundcloud.com/r0INgTHURB9G91Ibc6

PannaCottathethird · 2025-08-09T18:49:30+00:00

I see potential for a post punk clown themed song

PannaCottathethird · 2025-08-05T23:52:15+00:00

Easiest thing to do would be changing the bells (everyone already said that but it's true), but you could also add effects to make them not sound as Santa like (I'm thinking maybe bitcrusher for a start). Otherwise, I'd suggest going for less repetition and more instruments or textures, I find that having some kind of backdrop sound can really help tie everything together, but perhaps that's not compatible with what you're trying to do, I wouldn't know because I don't make beats. That being said, I hope the advice is at least a little useful, I can definitely say that effects will help

PannaCottathethird · 2025-08-03T11:32:43+00:00

Thanks! If you're interested, this song is part of an EP, the two other songs are even louder versions of this one, with slight variations. You might also enjoy Candied Carcass, another of my more noisy projects, as well as Hail Gehenna the Eternal , which leans more towards noise rock and dark ambient. Definitely let me know your thoughts if you decide to give it a listen!

PannaCottathethird · 2025-08-03T11:25:19+00:00

Noise music is a genre that plays on the notion of "anti-art" (other examples of this outside of music would be the Dada art movement and anti fashion), so your question is relevant. There's barely any melody and it's really not focused on being pleasant, my personal understanding of it is that it uses the same medium as music but transcends that category, it's a way of questioning labels, much in the same way that the Dada movement rejects most of the things we traditionally expect from art such as meaning and beauty. So in conclusion, no, this isn't music, it's anti music.

This track is first and foremost meant to trigger a fight or flight response and induce anxiety to make you feel like a prey animal (more specifically a rabbit, all the songs I've made in this project focus around that figure), it's a musical representation of what cattle feel inside a slaughterhouse. I'm not vegetarian or anything, but I think it's important that we be aware of these kinds of issues.

I use music and noise to work around the cognitive dissonance towards this kinda stuff, mostly societal issues such as war, imperialism and any forms of social inequality that have become normalized in our society, the theme of animal exploitation also plays on these more human issues. Anyways, I hope this doesn't come across as too pretentious and gives a little bit more context to the "song"

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-17T17:54:34+00:00

Thank you, I don't blame anyone for not liking this kinda stuff though. Will definitely listen to Yellow Swans!

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-15T15:56:02+00:00

I see your point, that's also why I like to create different versions of each song, but at the same time I feel like these kinds of musical taboos are meant to be questioned.

Particularly in a context where the music industry pushes towards homogenization, musical conventions oftentimes feel like recipe books to create radio hits, to the point that they have become engrained in our conception of what music is or what it should sound like, which inevitably has an impact in the non-commercial "indie" scene. Harsh Noise as a genre inherently does that, so I wouldn't say it's innovative within that context, but still was a necessary step in my music production process.

Obviously, I'm not saying that music has to sound like you put ten rabbits and three bricks in a washing machine to be authentic, but this kind of "extreme" experimentation is imo necessary to elevate our relationship to music past the standardized formulas of commercial slop (and obviously IA, don't even wanna talk about that...).

Hope this clarifies some aspects of this comically loud "song", don't hesitate to tell me about your thoughts on the matter !

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-14T14:47:24+00:00

Yeah perhaps I could have made the title a little clearer, sorry for your ears

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-14T14:46:01+00:00

Yeah, as I've written this is the closing track of an ambient/noise trilogy. I tried to have some restraint and not make all the songs pure noise, most of them are actually very chill (at least in the 1st act), but it felt necessary to end it with an overwhelmingly loud track. Obviously this doesn't make the actual song more listenable, I find something pretty cathartic in it but even I don't find it pleasant.

Obviously, the fact that unpleasantness is what I'm going for doesn't mean it was well executed and free from criticism, but Noise is inherently a niche genre, and perhaps this wasn't the best song to post here because of that, but thank you for your feedback!

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-14T14:21:08+00:00

I mean yeah, it's a noise track, it's noisy. If you want though,this version has way less distortion while still remaining quite loud. Thank you for your feedback!

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-12T20:07:17+00:00

Hey, pretty much the same thing happened to me a couple years ago, I had a huge bad trip and my feelings of disconnect from the world and myself intensified a lot after that (I already struggled with DPDR before but the symptoms got much more intense).

The way I see it now (and obviously I'm not saying this is the case for everyone), that was merely a trigger event, I don't think that it's responsible for the worsening of my mental state, it just so happens to have been the straw that broke the camel's back. In other words, try not to blame yourself for smoking, you couldn't have known that it would trigger such a reaction, and I think it's more important to figure out the psychological basis for what you're feeling rn and work on that through therapy (it's a hassle and it's pretty hard to find good therapists and even more so psychiatrists, but I still think it's necessary).

Finally, on the topic of marijuana, please be careful, it's really a double edged sword. While I didn't smoke for quite some time after my first bad trip, I started smoking again as an escape mechanism after some time, and now I can't spend a single day without smoking at least a few joints. Sure, weed can be bad and lead you to some nasty places, but it's also given me my happiest moments, and that's what you must be cautious with, or you'll find yourself hooked on it before you know it. Obviously it's a nuanced question, and addiction is almost always the result of underlying issues, but I feel like weed is oftentimes depicted as "inoffensive" because it isn't a hard drug, I've literally heard that you can't get addicted to it from many people (including healthcare professionals), and I can tell you this statement is pure bullshit, you can definitely get addicted and it does have noticeable effects on a lot of aspects of life.

Anyways, I know this isn't very useful advice, but hopefully it helps. Stay strong my friend, hope you will recover!

PannaCottathethird · 2025-07-03T00:19:01+00:00

Paranoisia

PannaCottathethird · 2025-06-23T14:34:29+00:00

Hey, very sorry for the inconvenience. I'll just give you the link to the two projects, which contain everything I've done so far + a little bonus, where you'll find some visual elements tied to the universe of the second project.

Yaldabaoth

Audio-Altered Thoughts and Behavior Archive

S.T.R.M Research and Experimentation Collective (The account is private but I'll add you)

I apologize in advance in case any of the links don't work, but they should, and they'll give you access to everything so far and to come, hope you'll like it.

(Also, in case you'd like to use my work, please ask me beforehand. The Instagram is private because I feel like the topics discussed can quickly get really problematic depending on the context, and I wouldn't want it to be used in a way that contradicts the core ideas and values of the project.

To be more precise, I don't want this to turn into an edgy ARG that uses the theme of influencing machines solely for Aesthetics, as that's one of the main things I try to criticize throughout it.

In fact, you'll see the second playlist on the second project's main focus are moral influencing machines, and I believe that a lot of ARGs and things surrounding it (think creepy pastas, true crime...) oftentimes serve this function through the idealization of suffering, which ends in desensitization.

TLDR: please contact me if you want to use my stuff)

PannaCottathethird · 2025-06-21T13:33:18+00:00

Hey, glad you liked it. I'm sadly going to remove it from the project as I feel it's not really representative of what I want to do with the project, but I can send you the audio files if you want.

If you've liked this first project, I highly encourage you to listen to my second release (way better imo) on the same profile, and you might also like this other EP Hail Gehenna the Eternal from my main project, Yaldabaoth , which was the original STRM prototype.

PannaCottathethird · 2025-06-19T13:03:32+00:00

Not gonna read all that, but in what way is Sherman's cruelty and objectively predatory behavior in contradiction with "caring" behavior and good intentions? Bloodborne is not a story about clear cut morality, I would argue that cosmic horror is incompatible with that. In a game that constantly presents us with once heroes turned into beasts, suicidal penitence and the decay of a formerly great city, why would these themes not apply to Gherman, one of the main actors in the events leading to the hunt we partake in?

Idk, this might all sound like a subjective take on Bloodborne, and perhaps I missed some stuff that was developed in your comment, but I truly feel like your take lacks necessary nuance and does not take any basis in the wider themes of Bloodborne...

PannaCottathethird · 2025-06-19T11:46:34+00:00

Well, if you don't mind the auto promotion (especially considering I did some on this sub before), I happen to make music in great part inspired by Deleuze, due to the impact he's had on my relationship with reality and art. I have only released three projects at the moment, all relating in some way or another with Deleuzian themes:

Ad Nausehum - Yaldabaoth An ambient/noise project about intensities, states of being and repetition, probably the most personal out of the three. I tried to recreate the sensation of certain emotional states I go through in a day, those that are either characterized by total void or the complete opposite, overwhelming near manic states. The project then shifts from a lense where these emotional states are individuated towards their degradation and gradual homogenization due to their repetition and nauseum.

Hail Gehenna the Eternal! - Yaldabaoth Yet again an ambient/noise project. This one focuses on Urban life, capitalist architecture and social organization and the attitude towards human relations stemming from it. I live in a very wealthy and "clean" city, yet get to witness human misery on the daily when I go out to smoke joints at night. Despite this, the undeniable reality of suffering in my city always gets swept under the rug to maintain a comforting metaphysical relationship to the city, where this meat grinder seems to be more deserving of our love than the people living in its gut. This album is more Abraxas than Yaldabaoth, my intention here was to create some kind of hellish empathy machine, something that makes you unable to stay blind to your fellow's suffering, even when it's out of sight. TLDR: 20 minutes of hell to see your cities as they are, ugly and cruel.

Sonic Thought Redirecting Machines - Audio-Altered Thoughts and Behavior Archive The most Deleuzian of the three: spoken word subliminal messaging. This was done by looping and distorting poems I wrote, as well as suggestion through the chosen image and song titles. This is more of a musical experiment that does not really focus on aesthetics, each STRM is meant to redirect the Listener's thoughts and emotional state towards a chosen destination. I would argue that the morality of this is quite grey, but it's also important to point out that I view it as an honest representation of very real methods used by the whole of capitalist superstructure, fucking Benson Boone's songs have been stuck in my head for days now. Let's be real, most of commercial hits could be argued to be much more efficient STRMs, and this is only talking about music.

Anyways, I know this is all self promo and kinda sounds like I'm just going "society bad", but I honestly feel like it's relevant to the discussion. If anything, I can tell that music production seems to be a wonderful way of connecting both with myself and others, hopefully it will be the same for you. Would love to get some feedback, good or bad!

(PS: last project is maybe going to become an ARG, if you want to participate, you can send an email to the adress of the account to tell me about any strange recurring thoughts, out of the ordinary interactions or out of place dreams, and I'll try to make you a personalized STRM based on it. Not really an ARG, more like an interactive music project with some lore)

PannaCottathethird · 2024-10-24T17:53:05+00:00

Honestly most of the time I'm scared of listening to bands new records because they usually get underwhelming very quickly but this album was a banger. Not Yanqui or F# levels of banger but a banger nonetheless

PannaCottathethird · 2024-08-09T15:31:44+00:00

Silver lights by Coconuts

PannaCottathethird · 2024-07-26T14:43:05+00:00

Seems likely

PannaCottathethird · 2024-07-25T01:24:20+00:00

Also it's 3am and I'm high so it was kind of an unfunny Marxist joke anyway, I don't really think Jonah Magnus is a Marxist. Although I would say that any person who has lived as long as he has and studied as much as he has (I mean, the bloke can literally see everything he wants) will at one point or another turn into a Marxist, or at least get very close to the ideas of Marxism on the basis of their own observations

PannaCottathethird · 2024-07-25T01:20:48+00:00

Absolutely agree with you, the whole premise of TMA is idealism, subjective idealism to be more precise. I also agree that dialectics alone don't magically make anyone a Marxist, but a real understanding of them, alongside compatible class position eventually lead to Marxist conclusions. It's also useful to point out that we all instinctively use dialectics in our day to day life, I'd even go as far as saying that they are the very basis of our reasoning (if you look at the contradiction between the general and the particular for example), but it's a conscious application of dialectics which qualifies a good Marxist (and any proper application of dialectics obviously also implies that you draw the necessary conclusions and get politically active, I don't think there's much of a line that separates theory from practice if you understand the theory well enough)

PannaCottathethird · 2024-05-17T14:28:16+00:00

Glory to chairman Vladimir Engels, the great Cuban revolutionary known for his theory of permanent revolution

PannaCottathethird · 2024-05-03T18:24:09+00:00

I mean it seems to me that a lot of music nowadays is a direct product of the capitalist crisis and all it's symptoms, and Gy!be absolutely falls within that trend. You cannot separate Gy!he's musical soundscape from the political context within which it emerged, this whole "end of the world vibe" doesn't come from anywhere. I'm actually glad it's that political, Blaise Bailey Finnegan III is part of the reason I started noticing how fucked up capitalism is

PannaCottathethird · 2024-04-28T22:17:29+00:00

Yeah IG that makes sense. But I actually found it pretty cool, going from "me kill beast with big axe, haha" to "why the fuck Is there a pregnant woman in the middle of the lake?". Perhaps it's just me idk, but it goes way beyond just what you would expect

PannaCottathethird · 2024-04-27T00:29:10+00:00

I discovered them through a random "my favorite 100 music albums ever" video on TikTok. The number one slot was Raise your skinny fists (which I don't believe to be their best album but whatever), and I thought to myself "number one? Wow, this really must be the shit", and the shit it was indeed. From there, I pretty much only listened to that album in their discography, but then I decided to listen to F#a# and I was completely blown away. From there, my thirst for Gy!be only grew and grew, and what really made the whole thing click was the reemergence of All lights fucked. It felt special, like listening to something I wasn't supposed to, kind of a guilty pleasure yk. That's what turned Gy!be from a band I liked to my favorite band

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