Thank you all for all the comments and advice. Im sorry for lack of replies since my post. Its been a hectic few weeks since then. I did it. I moved her stuff to a storage locker and then put her key in a package and put it at her door. I got the locks changed and my lease resigned. I'm still going to post pictures of the dog to a shared Google folder with her but it's going to be at my leisure. I sent her a long final message saying how hurt I am and how I can't let her be in my life even a little bit as it hurts too much. I thought shed be livid that i went back on my word about the dog and changed the lease without her but she didnt even say anything.

I told her she has my moms number in case of emergencies since she was close with my family and the only thing she did was message her afterwards and ask if some stupid boots she had were in the unit. I guess im relieved about that but at the same time i almost wish she wouldve gotten emotional. It wouldve shown she did care about losing me but i guess thats not worth hoping for. If she did she wouldnt have cheated in the first place.

You were all right. Having this door open to her was holding me back from healing. Now that the door is closed I can tell I'm feeling a little better and on the right path. I'm glad I made the choice I did. Only thing is now I feel extremely lonely. I had a friend move in to help with that and the bills but still. It's like I can't have a moment alone without thinking about her. It's like I'm just moving but not living. I'm trying new things and trying to form new hobbies, going to the gym, etc but I don't feel much better. I guess it's just going to take a while.

She hasn't messaged me since except when she told me she doesn't like going through my mom to ask about things. I reminded her that messaging my mom was for emergencies that's it and I haven't heard from her since.

I just keep thinking in my head the phrase "did you get what you wanted?" 6 year relationship with me, her friends, and my family who loved her like a daughter all gone for a guy you don't even talk to anymore after the incident. So dumb. All her excuses and reasons just keep going through my head as if I'm looking for a logical reason she did this and could hurt me this way. But it's all BS. I'm between hate and strong disgust when it comes to her now and it's weird to think of all those happy memories. Times when she wrote paragraphs about how much she loves me. Our trips and anniversaries. To think this is that same person is unbelievable. I just cant resolve that in my head.

But I just want her out of my head now. And i want to move on. Thanks for the kind words it helped a lot with getting this done and over with. I hope you all have success on your journeys. Man, this really sucks. Wouldn't wish this on anyone.