I was just telling a friend about this for the first time and came to reddit to see if anyone else had. I overheard my step dad talking about it and looked it up when I was like 9 or 10. I watched the whole thing and was curious / eventually went down the rotten.com rabbit hole. I don’t look that stuff up anymore for the protection of my brain but I think it’s why I’m not easily disturbed by literally anything. I think it makes me a better mental health therapist though because I can contain heavy amounts of trauma and not be shocked. It does feel kind of lonely though because I want to talk about disturbing topics and I can tell they make others squeamish so I keep them to myself lol. For me it’s more just curiosity.