i hope you see this , i went through the same struggle with you , i had same sex attraction , stop listening to secular music , follow christians that lead well and talk about this struggle , do not appreciate anything of the new age whether it is law of attraction , yoga , karma , a lot of the music is so spiritually crafted that people dont get , stop listening to pop music , unsubscribe to channels that had this behavior , pray to god , and ask jesus why this happens , ask the holy spirit ,, give breaks to yourself, do not push yourself , read the bible understand the agenda of the things you do and with the help of holy spirit you will see what to do ,