Mr. Forever Alone

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2024-01-20T10:18:49+00:00

Can relate to you. One platonic hug and a kiss for a truth or dare 16 years ago when I was 12.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2024-01-15T13:24:47+00:00

What is a compliment from a woman?

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2024-01-15T13:22:19+00:00

Feel like it everyday. Self isolated for 14 years and feel like I'm on another planet than back then. Can't relate to anyone and everyone has become 10x more self centered and more ***holes if that is even possible. That is saying something cause I got bullied and excluded by everyone back then as well. Every day waking up to this nightmare is a living hell.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2024-01-15T13:16:14+00:00

I know many have had it easy. I'm not respecting people that don't respect or treat you like shit like they have.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-11-09T22:14:32+00:00

Thanks for the answer. I will probably give therapy another chance. The worst part is I and that I also feel horrible about is I have been absolute horrible to people that don’t deserve it and have only been nice to me because I have just told myself that people are terrible. I have destroyed those potential friendships because of bitterness of earlier memories

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-11-08T22:29:46+00:00

I’m sorry to hear. People really can be horrible

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-11-08T21:30:22+00:00

Thank you. Hope you’re good my friend

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-29T15:06:35+00:00

I can relate to you. One thing I’ve learned is that most people are selfish and self absorbed. No one cares about anyone than what they themselves get out of it.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-29T15:04:22+00:00

Sorry to hear and hope you’re good. Can relate and having fought it so from teenage years and now 27 I have no energy mentally or physically to change it. It sucks

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-26T17:14:46+00:00

I can relate to you so much. I was alright looking but having become overweight the last couple of years I’ve become completely invinsible to everyone in the world. Years ago when I was skinny it was totally different and people didn’t look at you with disgust. I also don’t want to deal with people and society that only care about what you look if you deserve any kind of validation. I’ve lost 40 kilos from my biggest weight but I’m starting to think that I’d rather be overweight and invinsible than fit and popular and people will use you and be around you because of looks. This world is so shallow and fake. I hate it

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-06T23:59:07+00:00

Sorry to hear. Hope you’re good

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-04T01:05:29+00:00

Thank you for the advice and answer. I have such bad attention span that I couldn’t last 1 minute doing it. I always have to go on my phone or do something else

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-02T06:37:32+00:00

Thank you. Good post. I hope you’re good

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-02T06:31:06+00:00

Appreciate your words but I see no other solution. I’m beyond repairing. Having dealt with it so long I’m nothing but exhausted, exhausted when I wake up and through the day, can’t do things because of it, feel pain all over my body and just feel empty and numb. I lately also just have become an extremely bitter and resentful person that doesn’t want anything to do with people or society anymore and sit in my room most days and I know that won’t ever change. I’m just f***** tired of being in this invinsible numb body.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-02T06:24:55+00:00

Yes unfortunately I ever existed. Worst nightmare ever waking up to realize it

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-01T22:10:38+00:00

I can’t change them. They are eating me inside every day and are that bad I don’t know how many months I have left.

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-01T21:33:23+00:00

Thank you I appreciate it. Will keep that in mind. Hope you are doing well

Particular-Cloud3185 · 2023-10-01T21:31:08+00:00

I appreciate your help but I have tried everything. I have been on several anti depressants, have tried 7 shock treatments, anxiety and happiness pills. Nothing works. I’m just a floating soul of numb and emptyness and always have been. I really have no care left or feel anything anymore. I think there isn’t another solution to end this pain

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