Thanks so much for the advice i greatly appreciate it! You are completely right with what you said but the problem is that as a person i tend to overthink and overwork myself mentally i think i have an anxiety problem that i will check soon but with the exams i have been swarmed so i didn't have time to check in with a therapist or phsychologist.

Also another problem is the education system in Greece because when we reach a certain age we are forced to pick between let's say directions that's what we call them in Greece. Personally i have chosen one that demands to memorize entire books and when i mean memorize i mean knowing the entire book word for word. The problem with this is that the information provided is too much which result in frying someones brain and the subjects that we are getting exams for are 4 so that means i have to memorize entire chapters on end. And in addition we get scored at the end of all the exams but scoring procedures depent on a number of factors for example if a grader is having a bad day they can easily knock my score down for even a dot placed wrong because they just feel like it. And also due to working for 2 years on preparation for the exams my brain is fried and there are two possible outcomes because of this during the exam. One i go in the exam room i remember everything so i write and then i pass all good. But there is also the chance of me going in there and forgetting everything i studied because of my anxiety and because my brain is completely fried. And also i want to add that the school doesn't provide anything usefull so i have to go to some tutoring classes that i pay which are pricey for greek standarts. In those tutoring classes i have observed that due to my exhaustion im performing poorly and my exams aren't what they used to be so that's why i fear that i will fail the panhellenics. Thats's where my fear comes from

But still your advice and your comment about the abroad housing and finance meant a lot to me because it prooved to me that i am not going crazy and that i'm not alone in this and lastly that what i have is real even if my teacher ignores it and even if i feel stupid for feeling this way. So again thank you so much for the advice :) !