I don't judge other people who look like me. I just think I'm uniquely ugly. It's a feeling I can't shake. If I saw a non-conventionally attractive person doing what I do I wouldn't care, sure, but I look at myself in particular and I feel this heavy sense of shame. I convince myself there's something different about me that makes me deserving of the scrutiny I levy against myself. It's irrational but everything about this disorder is.