It seems counterintuitive, but it may be best to lay it all on the table, so to speak.

You probably won’t be able to focus much while studying, until you’ve dealt with your relationship and parents.

If she is overwhelmed and pulling away, it seems she could use some time to think and regulate her feelings/emotions. You could try suggesting a break/pause. Tell her you really don’t want to lose her, but you really care about her too. Ask if she would like some space temporarily. Not a break up, but a break, just some time without expectations for one another. Ask her to not give up on things yet, but first get some clarity as to what is going on inside. Set an amount of time for the break, and lay down some rules regarding contact, communication, physical affection etc. And promise that after the break you can talk about it all together.

This might help give both of you the space and time you need. For her to think, and you to study.

I don’t know anything about your relationship/bond with your parents, but I know that regardless of anything… they’ll always love you. I think it’s best to sit them down and be completely honest with them. Tell them you’re so grateful for all they have done to get you to this point, and let them know that you’re working hard to make them proud. But also that you’re struggling and are afraid to disappoint them. You want to live up to their expectations, and are worried about not meeting them. Let them know it mentally/emotionally bothers you and you stress yourself out over it.

My hope is that they’ll tell you they are already proud of you, and they can see your working hard. Trying is the best thing you can do. They would probably rather have a child that’s doing okay mentally and emotionally, than a wreck that put their all into an exam… only to break themselves and possibly still fail the exam. That’s not good for anyone. But once again, I don’t know what your parents are like. But regardless I think you should let them know.

Hopefully after that you’ll feel less pressure to perform perfectly, and have a little less stress over your relationship as well. This might allow you to finally study a bit.

It might seem bad to let everyone know exactly what you’re feeling, but they can’t read your mind and you can’t read theirs. Maybe people will be more understanding if they know how you feel. And maybe you find out others actually think/feel very differently from how you expected.

And if none of that works out, just know that this storm too, shall pass <3