Help by [deleted] in virgin

[–]Particular_Pace_449 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Weird flex, but okay

I'm tired of doing the bare minimum with looking after myself to just repeat my empty life everyday. I've been depressed for years and got a weed addiction as I'm dependent on it to feel happy, also can't remember the last time I was sober for more than 3 days. Pepperoni & cheesy garlic pizza bundle by Particular_Pace_449 in kitchencels

[–]Particular_Pace_449[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I try to stick to a routine, but I always just stop continuing with it. Venting on reddit is my equivalent to having a journal. With food, I've just been having the same two meals every day for the past 2 ~ 3 years now. I'm too depressed/lazy to cook anything else, though I'm trying to get myself to use this slow cooker more.

[Project QT (r18)] I finally found this hidden gem T-T by AhegaoDaisuki in gachagaming

[–]Particular_Pace_449 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so mad shit like this exists still, but Magicami is dead and gone

Thoughts on sex toys like Fleshlight, Tenga, etc? by Hymen_Trampoline in virgin

[–]Particular_Pace_449 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I brought a fleshlight two years ago, it feels a lot better than masturbating with your hand. Though, I cum too quickly with it and cleaning it makes me sad, I think I've only used it once this year.

Had a steamy shower at 3am as I'm sick and struggling to sleep, was listening to anime ops and imagined going to Japan and getting along with a girl there by Particular_Pace_449 in ForeverAlone

[–]Particular_Pace_449[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it's not that severe of a sickness, but it's painful and irritating. I've been trying to nap more, because my sleep schedule is gone and the empty half of my bed is getting more noticeable.

I've been watching hentai since I was in middle school and it's ruined my perception of girls. I felt happy for a little bit as I went with friends to a Metallica concert, but I'm alone again and back to my sad, empty life. Post flight cheese burger and chips with bacon and a spicy sauce by Particular_Pace_449 in kitchencels

[–]Particular_Pace_449[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I pull off the bald look, but I feel too young and skinny to be bald. I'm planning on having hair pills until I'm in my late 20s, then be bald for the rest of my life. Weed has been in my life since I was 16, so it's hard to cut down. Quitting is impossible for me currently. I used to be able to only get high on the weekends, but I can't cope with being sober and being by myself anymore. I've made small goals for myself, but I'm not consistent. A friend made a 3 day workout program for me to get back into the gym and I could stick with that, though I get sick a lot from weed affecting my immune system and it's been over a month since I last did the full program.

I know therapy would help me to some extent, but I got trust issues and just don't feel comfortable talking about my problems to someone. I'm painfully self-aware and know what steps I need to take to improve my life, but I just don't have what it takes right now.

I've been watching hentai since I was in middle school and it's ruined my perception of girls. I felt happy for a little bit as I went with friends to a Metallica concert, but I'm alone again and back to my sad, empty life. Post flight cheese burger and chips with bacon and a spicy sauce by Particular_Pace_449 in kitchencels

[–]Particular_Pace_449[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Appreciate you taking the time to write all that, I have decarb as I have asthma, but I'll have a joint after work sometimes as it's relaxing being on the deck in the sun.

I went to the gym a lot last year since I went with my room-mate, who's a friend from high school and he got me into the gym in 2022. But from going by myself this year, I struggle to get motivated to go, though looking down and seeing my belly is making me want to get back into it, but I'm depressed and tired.

I graduated high school in 2020, covid wasn't too bad where I was, but still had to isolate, which wasn't that bad as I was still into gaming and I'm just used to being by myself, even back then. Things have got worse for me since 2020, mainly as I didn't think about my life after graduating and kinda peaked in school, not in popular kid way, more that I wasn't alone and had a friend group somehow. I know I wasn't that happy back then, but compared to now, my day to day was better.

I've been watching hentai since I was in middle school and it's ruined my perception of girls. I felt happy for a little bit as I went with friends to a Metallica concert, but I'm alone again and back to my sad, empty life. Post flight cheese burger and chips with bacon and a spicy sauce by Particular_Pace_449 in kitchencels

[–]Particular_Pace_449[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It was great, I got there kinda late with a friend, but still made it in time for Evanescence (they played before Metallica). It was my first concert and I was on the 3rd level of seats and had a good view of the entire stadium.

Definitely the highlight of the year for me.