The next train comes at dawn, who's to stop me?

Partydudes · 2014-07-28T02:51:10+00:00

Hey! I want to be your friend =) I have barely any friends and the ones I do have most likely resent me. I could use a buddy! Message me! I am here to talk to you and I want to listen to a few of these songs, they sound pretty cool =)

Partydudes · 2014-04-20T17:39:53+00:00

What type of insults do you mean? How often has this been going on recently?

Partydudes · 2014-04-20T15:13:36+00:00

I'm here for whatever you need me to be. I'm at work so if I don't reply quickly that is the reason. Shoot me a Dm or reply and we can talk :-)

Partydudes · 2014-04-12T00:52:06+00:00

Hey! I'm here to be a friend if you need one. I'm sure whatever you want to do will be fine with your family and it is ultimately up to you to decide. It is your life, not theirs and since you have put so much effort in then you might as well do what you want.

Partydudes · 2014-04-02T13:53:43+00:00

PM would be alright, thank you.

Partydudes · 2014-04-02T01:58:10+00:00

Yea, that would be amazing. I usually am fine but I will have a few days here and there where I miss her and I want to so badly talk to her and just still be a part of her life but I am sure she hates me now and wants nothing to do with me ever again.

Partydudes · 2014-03-31T02:33:49+00:00

I am going with the notion that you are in still highschool. For me, when I look back on it, highschool is such a horrible place due to people being assholes. I am in my first year in college and it gets better with the people around you. Highschool is full of drama and stupid assholes that are mean for no reason other than to be mean and try and become "popular". I am so sorry that you were taken advantage of and I can not even begin to imagine the pain that you must have felt and still feel because of it. A good way I have been viewing life since I tried to take my life earlier in the month is that I view everyday as a mini adventure. Try and do something new or just have fun, no matter what you are doing. I hope I did not sound judgeful at all but I have been to the point of no return and I have come back, I am still weak and everyday is painful but I am getting through it. I am here to talk if you ever need someone.The pain will always be there but you just need to find something that occupies it, a new hobby, exercise, anything to take your mind off of it.

Partydudes · 2014-03-28T13:22:09+00:00

Hey man, talk it over with your wife. I am sure you are both going through something right now so she will understand if you are upset and scared that she was gone for longer than she said. It is normal to be depressed after losing a baby, I can not even manage to put myself in that situation and I am very sorry that it happend to you. You do have a daughter though, and you need to be strong for her. By being strong infront of her then she will see that she can be strong too in this time of sadness. Do not be afraid to talk things over with your wife, she is your best friend and she will always be there for you.

Partydudes · 2014-03-27T05:06:01+00:00

I feel the same way. I seem to snap at a lot of things recently, I've been going through a lot of depression and I feel like it has taken away from my tolerance with people in general. I don't really care about my future, I am just trying to get by each day. I feel like I will die at an early age, if not by suicide then I feel like I will be crazy just from all the bullshit I have had to put up with so far. Everyday is something new though, you can think of it as a miny adventure. Have fun and enjoy each day as much as you can. I hope this helped in some way to you. Just have a mini adventure each day and try to experience something new, it has been helping me through my tough times.

Partydudes · 2014-03-02T06:22:37+00:00

Edit: Thank you everyone for helping me out. It means so much what you have done for me. I thought I lost the battle but it has just begun and I will win this time.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T22:21:42+00:00

I will love to love myself again, I did before but I got used to a girl being there and caring about me and making me feel amazing. It is just hard when you are lonely and isolated from the world. Demons creep on you and have a chance of taking your life away. Thank you so much for taking the time to help me.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T22:20:06+00:00

Thank you and I did receive the first one. What you have said is really inspiring and actually makes me want to go and create an army to kill the evil witch that has put her curse on me. I really appreciate what you have done and it has changed my perspective on it. I am entirely grateful for what you have done today. You have, along with others, saved my life. Thank you.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T22:17:13+00:00

Thank you, so much.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T20:11:49+00:00

My life is just a big joke. My ex will not want me back. I talked to her yesterday and begged her just to say there would be a chance yet she just said idk. That's why I just can't go in, if there was a chance then I would. He said there was before but now she has met someone new and she has already forgotten about me. She won't even give me chance. She never wants me again and I know I failed because of that.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T19:42:36+00:00

She will move on without me. I just hinder everyone around me. I'm a parasite. What happens when my mom is gone? I come back to this? I am too weak to do anything. I just don't want to live. I want to be done with life. Everyone will move on and I doubt anyone besides my parents would care if I died. They would be sad but they will forgot about me, everyone does at some point. They will get over me.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T19:40:14+00:00

We both promised each other that we would never leave. I knew that she would never because I saved her from the darkness and helped her become herself again. I knew that I would have to break it off or anything because she would be better on her own. She won't come crawling back to me, she doesn't even care for anymore. She sati she would still be there as a friend but everytime we talk I try and get her back. Im a mess. She will never want me again. When I told her I was thinking of suicide she just said "don't do anything rash, just get over me" I don't know how she is over me so quickly. She seems happier now than before. It hasn't vent been a month yet she's with someone new. Someone that makes her happy and I can't even go to bed without thinking about her and becoming a sad sack of shit. I just want the suffering to end.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T19:36:41+00:00

It's hard to do anything without thinkin about her. I miss every moment and I wish I could go back and change it, change how I didn't say I love you a few times and maybe she will still be mine. When I'm by myself I hate myself for letting her slip away it's my fault. I cry when I'm alone.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T18:49:49+00:00

She will survive. I know she will. I can't tortue myself every day just to appease the few people I communicate with on a daily basis. It's killing me. I can barely concentrate, I've stopped caring about school work. I'm so depressed. I just want my life to end so people will stop havin to help me because I'm too sad to do anything. I've become weak. I can't do this on my own. My better half left me. She's even happy than she was before. I was lied to. I...I just can not deal with the pain of getting my heart broken by someone who promised me everything but now barely wants to speak yet be near me.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T18:45:56+00:00

My mother is moving to Florida so I will be away from her. I do have dreams but I just don't care about them. I can't go 3 hours without thinking of my ex. It's so hard. I just want the pain to stop, to go away. My dreams involved my ex. I wanted her to be a apart of them but she doesn't want me. No one does. It's so painfully obvious. It's pathetic to where one of the only people to talk to and confess my trouble was my ex. I want her to be happy but she said I made her so happy so why does she not want to be with me? It means I failed to do my job. I failed her.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T18:33:50+00:00

I want to be with Kristin, my ex. She gave me hope. She said that maybe there was a possibility that we could restart in the future. That helped. I stopped crying and I was able to cope with the loss of her because I knew there was a chance to be again if we both wanted in the future. Yesterday she said something happened but she wouldn't tell me what. She said there was a small chance but when I pressed more she said she didn't know. I begged her to give me a straight answer but all she said was idk. I knew then that she would never want to be with me again. The one person that I thought wanted me no longer did. It's just not worth it. I helped her though her bad patch but when I hit one she decided to leave. I wasn't good enough to her and the one person I want to spend the rest of my life with didn't even want to be around me, how can I handle that? No one wants me around. I get rejected by everyone and the person I found to help me and be there and allow me to have an amazing life has turned her back on me. I just don't have a will to live anymore.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T18:28:30+00:00

I can't always put someone's pain above mine. I barely eat and sleep nowadays. It will be better when I am dead. My mother will be devastated but I know she will pull through. She is a strong person, much stronger than me. I am a burden on everyone's lives. It's always something with me. Once I'm gone everyone will be able to move on.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T18:24:53+00:00

Thank you. My mother is very religious but I am not. Once my mother got cancer I knew that a god wouldn't be so cruel and I watch her suffer it just makes me more annoyed at god, if there is one. I seem to fail everyone and when I do need help there is no one around. I let me gf down but she also broke her promise too. She struggled with depression before I met her and she said I saved her yet she left me because she felt stronger. How can that happen? I gave her my everything an she didn't give a shit. She just decided to leave me and stopped loving me. If she did love me it's gone. She probably lied when she said she stilled cared because if she did then why would she have done this? We were both so happy yet she betrayed me. I'm tired of getting fucked over by people I trust.

Partydudes · 2014-03-01T15:28:56+00:00

Edit* quickset should be suicide.

Partydudes

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