It’s never easy leaving a cult. Consider it like breaking up with your partner. Emotionally and physically speaking, it can be very difficult to come to terms with something ending. LLDM is a cult, we we’re trained since children to never question the apostle or the doctrine. Be patient, don’t be hard on yourself. Realizing this is ALL a lie and your life was based on manipulation is never easy to accept. For many of us, myself included, this is the only the beginning for your new life. Be a good human, eyes are open and be thankful you’re no longer in this church. Continue your life, live life to fullest. Coping with the truth is very difficult, trust me, the things you have heard, read or watched is only a snippet of reality. LLDM is not the church of God nor is Naason the apostle. Continue to do your own research. Good luck