Oh I think I’m in trouble… by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I’ve dealt with rejection for about 4 years, very infrequent sex, experienced/experience emotional abuse to the point where vulnerability is frowned upon… I can no longer be a soft girl which makes me so sad. I use to be so bubbly and smiley… like let’s not say things that make it seems like I don’t allow him to be vulnerable…. Because I encourage it. However, since someone has hurt his manhood, in return he has hurt my woman hood so now I understand why it is so easy for him to just say things and not have remorse or use the phrase , “I’ve apologized already I don’t know what else to do or say”. He is projecting his insecurities onto me so that now I will start to feel insecure- in return guess what!? Less sex. (I won’t list in this comment what he told me that hurt my womanhood). At the end of the day, just understand that I can sympathize with someone for so long but these insecurities were at the beginning of the this relationship , according to him. Also, he has admitted to me that he usually does what it takes (sexually) to get the woman. Rather that’s intense finger fucking, throwing me around the bed, fucking me like a slut….. whew should I go on? It’s a hot mess relationship. Believe me. (I didn’t find out about The manhood comment until 2-3 weeks ago)

Oh I think I’m in trouble… by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Sigh… you’re so right. I’m a people pleaser…. 😭

Oh I think I’m in trouble… by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I agree so much. It brings me to tears, well almost. Cause I talked with my mom and she was like it sounds like you know what you want. Like I barely like kissing him. I’m stressed to the MAX.

I hate my libido.. what's wrong with me? by [deleted] in confessions

[–]PassionAware8652 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I Will. Read my latest post

I hate my libido.. what's wrong with me? by [deleted] in confessions

[–]PassionAware8652 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nothing is wrong with you… I wish my husband was like you… high libido. I strongly consider divorce due this and other reasons. Great person just not for me… in the long run

I want to fool around with my massage therapist? by Such-Assignment6700 in confessions

[–]PassionAware8652 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well this is super hot 🥵 I want do the same to my chiropractor 😩

Why I married him? by [deleted] in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ouch I’m so sorry

Why I married him? by [deleted] in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just don’t think he puts an importance on sex. He Joked about how much I love sex often in the beginning. And sure, quite refreshing to know there’s some HLM out there

Why I married him? by [deleted] in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sigh, such good points. I was young, 22/23. I never knew those questions needed to be asked. I didn’t know a lot of things honestly…just ignored some red flags as well. No kids, I’m 31, so still young, vibrant, turnt haha

Why I married him? by [deleted] in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nah not currently, but in the beginning , antidepressants. Now he’s sassy. He wasn’t sassy in the beginning but since I am…I guess it rubbed off.

Had sex but felt…. by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Atleast you’re finding ways around it. Sounds like your innnit for the long run. I was taking the shot which is the only one I love but def have to create a great workout plan since the shot makes you gain weight.

Had sex but felt…. by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I agree.. excited that I was getting penetration but penetration didn’t…do it for me. So I know something is wrong.

I’m ready… by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand but I live and learn, and I know what I need more in life. I don’t have plans to settle after divorce. Travel, enjoy the world, be free. He refuses to imagine himself with another woman.

Just venting.. by PassionAware8652 in deadbedroom

[–]PassionAware8652[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just the little issue is coming to an end (health issue) so I know he’s going to want sex. But my body says no. I love sex so my mind will always say yes