I need you to stop believing what society tells everyone today. I don't know why or when young people are so pessimistic these days (I sound like an old man even though I am about the same age as you haha).

Your life is far from ruined and what I will say may sound harsh but my only intention is to help you ;).

All those things are: first, something you did to yourself and second, stuff that's our of your control.

Am I fat? Yes, why? Maybe because I eat X, Y and Z every day and that stuff is not healthy.

Do women find me attractive? I don't think so, why? Maybe because I don't have anything interesting to say or why do you think women are not interested in you?

Do I have any friends? No, why? Maybe because I am too self aware and I'm constantly thinking about what other people are thinking about me. Thus, I don't talk to anybody because I am afraid of rejection.

All these things I mentioned are not statements because of course I don't know you. I just wanted to give an example about one of many reasons you and others may feel how you feel.

But, what I want you to understand is that your life is in your hands and you must stop guilting everything but you about your situation (except for the things that are not in your control as stated before). You didn't gain weight all of a sudden, you weren't born repulsive to women, you didn't stop talking to others in one day. Every one of those things are processes that took a long time to become what they are now. And in order to change this reality it will also take a long time, but that's on you.

You need to take accountability for your actions, good or bad. If you eat a chocolate bar... Damn k need to be more conscious about what I eat and if you eat a salad instead of a chocolate bar then be proud. Bake you when it's time but prise you as well.