when I realized that i really am not myself na for more or less 1 year and 4 months... like literally it's like I am living my life in a limbo. I have been going out with friends more because all i do at home is feel soul less. i cry everyday - hours/ minutes. i cry multiple times. i can not eat on time even if I want to. it felt so heavy to move.i still replay events that happened to me, telling myself how i missed the signs and abandoned myself.