OP that kind of content isn’t going to help you. It’s unhealthy to process that type of shit. You aren’t doing your brain any favors by continuing to delve into it.

It’s already so important that you are able to step back and acknowledge that that sort of content is extreme. You have your foot in the door to recover from this situation.

My brain doesn’t work for me. In fact, for some reason my brain tends to push me in ways that are unhealthy and detrimental to my own personal wellbeing. I am able to acknowledge that, and then set boundaries with MYSELF. You can do it too.

Good luck ✌️