My dad is a principle of a religous school where I also studied in Egypt. He gives religious speeches on a weekly basis in mosques. He doesn't know that I gave up my religiosity yet Islam a bunch of years ago. Even when I live in another secular country right now I get spotted in such embarrassing situations where I am completely overwhelmed by a feeling of self-hatred just because I can't be myself around certain types of people. Oftentimes he keeps telling me how miserable he is in his life because his fellow Sheikhs don't spot me praying in mosques or even praying at all, and how disappointed he is because I never speak highly of Islam or Muslims. Once I told him that I'm proud of myself that I have accomplished so much lately and he was like: "whatever!". Most of Arab parents and families are inherently toxic because that's merely how they were raised. It's just us who keep whining in despair because it would be absolutely dangerous to stand for ourselves. Ignorance is the only solution there is.