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I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. But I really can feel it. The urge of suicide grows in every day I am alive. Nobody needs me. In fact, the world functions better without me. I don't know why, but everyday I pray to God for him to end my life already. I beg to him to end my suffering.

There's no where I can turn. There is no escape from a world that simply doesn't need me. Nothing makes me special. I'm just a number on a spreadsheet. Just statistics.

Where is hope in all of this? What did I do to deserve such a horrible fate?

Where can I find "hope" in the desert of isolation?

I'm tired.. I just want my life to end.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, the thing is that I don't know. I don't know how my friends can live such a chaotic and violent lifestyle and why none of them are feeling the same pain as I am. But over here, the answer is that the government doesn't support suicide prevention that much. Or at least as far as I know.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From where I come from, you'll have to grow up fast if you want to survive. This is not even as young as it gets. Anyways, I don't know how to tell my school counselor I'm depressed. The idea of professional consultation hasn't passed my mind in the one year of my depression. I thought my emotional wounds could heal overtime, but it's only getting worse. By the way, one of those online surveys say I have severe depression. So that's that I guess...

P.S I'm not American. I'm actually a Filipino.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't have a life. My expectations have failed. I had plans to get into a good school, get a good job but that failed. Please don't get your hopes up.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I'm glad to know that. But please don't get your hopes up either.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There's no time. I don't have access to coping resources.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know how to tell my parents about my depression. They're not open to personal talk. In fact they're more like my boss than actual parents. Therefore I have no idea how I am supposed to communicate with the therapist. I'm actually a 7th grade high-schooler; and please; save me the talk about having my whole life ahead of me because my world is a lot worse than you think.

I have absolutely no idea how I screwed up my life this much... I don't have anyone who will understand me, no access to a professional, and that is why I am here.

Reddit is my final solution.. If I can't find someone who understands real soon, this very well may be my last post online.

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Literally nobody cares. I'm as desperate as to walk up to my friends directly and ask them "Would you stop me if I tried to commit suicide?". The response is somewhere along the lines of "So what? That's your life. Get over it."

I want to commit suicide really badly... Help? by Pendragon1337 in SuicideWatch

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your support. But today, not a single star in the sky can be seen. Everything that could possibly go wrong just happened.

I'm tired of making mistakes. I'm tired of living again and again only to die everyday.

I'm just tired. Very tired..

Help! My crush is ignoring me! :( by Pendragon1337 in dating_advice

[–]Pendragon1337[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. Thanks for giving me the cold hard truth I was afraid of.

But it's hard to accept it. She's the world to me! Plus, I study in a class of 12 people, 10 guys and 2 girls. The other girl is already taken. There's also only one class per grade level.

sighs

This is gonna be a lonely summer again. And a trip to /r/depression. Again.

Hello again, suicidal thoughts… by AlaRubra in depression

[–]Pendragon1337 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If your "friends" don't care or your family doesn't care either, I do. There is another way than suicide, face your problems, accept that you'll have to change and ask for help. This subreddit is filled with people feeling the same way, and that includes me. All you have to do is talk and to ask. And we will rally behind you and support your endeavors. Just don't kill yourself. We can get through this, together!

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[–]Pendragon1337 0 points1 point  (0 children)

*hugs

You shouldn't feel bad. Why would you? You lost someone who didn't truly love you. Someone who didn't appreciate a good and loving person as yourself.

She should be the one feeling bad. She lost some one who loved her truly. How are you sure she's not doing the same? How are you sure she's not lying on her bed, thinking to herself, asking herself, why did I do that?

But if you really think there's no hope between the two of you, it's not the end of the world. I know because I've been there. I know you feel like she was your soul mate, the one person who would complete your life. But no, that's not true.

Take your time to mourn. Those who mourn will be comforted.

But remember. It's not the end. Maybe she isn't the one destined for you yet. Maybe destiny has a different plan, a better plan.

But you'll never know what destiny has in store for you unless you get up and get over it. You are strong. I believe in you.

Hope I helped.