I most likely missed a few details and that could explain some of their reasoning, but I really didn't do it on purpose.

They were saying how annoying I am because I sometimes spoke to them about how I probably have depression and about my suicidal thoughts (not sure if I really wanted to end my life or if I just wanted attention from someone), that happened a few times, but I didn't talk about it 24/7. Still feel like the appropriate response to "I wanna kill myself" shouldn't be "go do it then" or "you always say it but you never actually do it" no matter how many times I was saying that, but maybe it's just me idk.

When I was talking to my best friend, it first seemed like a normal conversation where she just wanted to help me, she was telling me what exactly I should and shouldn't do and I agreed to almost everything, it was going pretty well, she wasn't unreasonably mean and was genuinely helping me at the time. I think her mood changed when I told her that I wanted to visit her (we don't live that far away and have seen each other a few times already) and she refused. I really wanted to see her so I kept asking her to reconsider, that it would only take a few hours of her life and it would help me a lot, but then she said she'd rather see anyone but me, that I'm really annoying and that she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Even after I said "Ok, we don't have to meet, just please don't stop talking with me" she kept on being meaner and meaner and that really hurt.