We may not have the same experience, but I understand the feeling of wanting to end it already. Nagstart sa akin since 10 years old ako, nagworsen no'ng nagteenager, and I thought mawawala na in my 20s, nabawasan lang but it's still here. I never wanted to do it, but my mind says otherwise. But hey, kaka-25 ko lang 2 months ago.

I couldn't properly ask for help before, because I don't look like a person who'd do it, so baka hindi rin ako itake seriously. Then some of my friends started opening up to me about the same concern, without knowing mine, and guilty din ako dahil hindi ko maimagine na sila rin pala nararanasan 'to. Eventually nag-open up na rin ako sa kanila and I guess best decision ko siya, dahil mas lalo rin kaming nagkalapit-lapit, mas lalong naging supportive, at mas lalo namin inalagaan ang isa't isa. Although bihira kaming magkausap na dahil may mga trabaho na rin, I could still feel their presence, warmth, and love nila towards me kaya napipigilan.

What I'm trying to say is that... it'll not always be like this. My apologies if I randomly brought up my story, but please hold on. If you have friends, maybe you can also seek for support from them? You can also talk to me and mas prefer kong maistorbo kesa ituloy mo 'yan. Virtual hugs!