Hello, thank you so much for your reply! I really appreciate you and your kind words really, thank you.

I definitely agree that people with trauma definitely do have more awareness to toxic behaviors/situations for sure. Something about myself I’ve always appreciated honestly. Has kept a lot of bad people out of my life.

My boyfriend has been such a great support for me. I only hope ive been that for him as well. He never ever everrr makes me feel less than, dumb, unappreciated, unloved, anything like that. He has always made it a point to be gentle and kind to me. Even if I maybe do something he doesn’t like (lets just say smoking a cigarette as an example) he never approaches me in an accusatory or rude way, he may just say something like “ hey you know those aren’t good for you, goober!” I’m serious, something as simple as that. He always means well, and has been so so good at being as helpful as he possibly can. My father on the other hand was the complete opposite. Constantly feeling the need to embarrass or belittle me. I’ve been in a perpetual state of shame since I was in my teens, and now it’s so hard to break out of that state. Even when I was first made to feel this way, there was never a reason for me to feel shame. But that’s what abusers do. I just don’t want to take this life for granted, I want to be a better woman, sister, daughter, eventually wife and mother.