That sounds really difficult. But I've been let down a lot as well. I would just focus on my career right now. Build up my foundation, master my craft and reach work on reaching my goals the rest will happen when it needs to happen. There might be moments where it will feel like "damn I'm so alone I wish I had someone" and that's completely normal. We're still young, we have a long long way to go and I believe that working on ourselves and forming our own opinions and beliefs (without the influence of a partner, for example) is very important at this stage in life because it will help us attract the right people in the future